I had to run some tools and beverage on this hot day out to the men working on a fence, so I swung into the farm on my way by.
Ruth informed me that Nancy is on her way for the day on the farm. We hope she is bringing along her water slide, or I predict they will be heading out to Camden State Park and the pond there we frequented when the girls were growing up.
First will be tomato soup as that is missed by my father very much. I fed the last jar a month ago and have since done something that I haven't done in years - probably 42 years as that is when I came to the farm! Buy tomato soup in the store!
Ruth does say that she doesn't remember my gardening being that horrible growing up... probably because I had her to help me being the oldest of the 5, and I did have my kids help me weed and pick as soon as they were able. I do miss the help now that I really need it! I am grateful that Ruth and her 6 come and help me plant my garden as a Mother's Day gift of all gifts! I can think of nothing better under the sun!
Ruth was saying that the dread of all the work ahead takes some of the joy out of having so many apples! Last year we had none, but this year we will be feeding many pails to the cows and spending days on applesauce and wonderful pie filling.
Dad is having an off day starting with a poor night of sleep. We are hoping that it is just that - a small step back in his dance called dancing into the sunset of his life. When we prayed this morning he asked mother to help him. Along with the bad night, breakfast was poor, and he is requesting pain gel on his shoulder. Each day is what we face as it is given to us...
Even on the poor days we still cling to our prayer time together and that is truly the "work" that we do together and keeps us reasonably calm and peaceful with one another. Yes, we have those times where tempers flare, but they do not last long.
Even though dad had a poor night and breakfast was a failure... we still did morning prayer of The Church together. It gives us the armor of God to face what lies ahead. Dad also prayed for those that are sharing The Kingdom of God with all those they come in contact with. Most especially he mentioned in prayer Little Sister Hallel and her Community of The Lamb, and how they live and share with all they come in contact with the life of loving and following Jesus in all you do and say and work and pray and beg from the poor!
These words from Psalm 105 from the mass today ring like a bell for me, who am given the strength from our shared work of prayer...
Look to the LORD in his strength;
seek to serve him constantly.
Recall the wondrous deeds that he has wrought,
his portents, and the judgments he has uttered.
R. Seek always the face of the Lord.
I can say for a fact that I would have failed to continue on this journey with any kind of strength or willingness without the gift I am given of sharing with my father in his "religious life" as a permanent deacon for 44 years now. it is my JOY and strength and allows me to weakly and poorly with poverty and humility serve him constantly. Twelve weeks tomorrow and no way of knowing how long or how it will play out.
Today I will just relish having my two oldest together here on the farm... Maybe here for lunch on my porch.
The Gospel from Matthew today... Jesus sends out the 12 to heal, and share that "The Kingdom of Heaven is at hand." Matthew 10 Such powerful evidence of this LOVE for us is seen in those glowing faces! Witnessing how Jesus can give us the fruits of His Spirit!
Paul and Ruth show me how to live married life also, by being LIFE giving and not LIFE taking. All that is said and done is out of LOVE and gives LIFE! I have adopted calling my Pat -"honey" and that helps me to be more loving in my voice and my actions. It has taken me 41 years to learn that lesson and I still fail at the slightest provocation!
Jesus, how we need to have you with us each moment of each day! May we die to self so that you may live in us! So that we may give without counting the cost. We are so grateful for the help that hospice has given us to stagger down this narrow path with our sights on heaven forever at the end. To have mother there so recently truly keeps our eyes on you! Jesus, we trust in you. Amen and Hallelujah
Wow! I just realized that Maria has updated her blog! So many pictures I could have borrowed today! Such a special gift that our farm daughter with her 6 and our military daughter with her 6 could spend some wonderful days together sharing their lives!
The two red heads and the 2 three year olds sharing a military vehicle of some sort!
Checking out ocean life on the sound. Seeing a part of the country that they likely will not visit again - all the way to the Pacific!
A night under their dome... More pictures to share another day! Bless-bless, Barbara
How we love to have those precious family times to share... Pat has a ticket to fly out and bring back the military family to the farm for a couple weeks ending after Labor Day! Maybe Hallel will come through on a road trip at that time?!? Lots of hopes and prayers and "fake plans!"
Patrick's First Communion shared with the Lanoues!