Friday, September 21, 2018

St Matthew over my shoulder... Matthew brought the sick/sinners to the great healer/physician/Jesus

These two arrived at midnight with their family and have been filling our house with lots of LIFE!  

Pat and I have spent some time at church starting before 6a... I have adopted the time he is at This Man is You to pray in the empty church for Fr Denny/Seven Sisters Apostolate!  He then joins me for mass, and that is a gift indeed!  
Feast of St Matthew today, and I looked over my shoulder to see his painted likeness over the door and over my shoulder.   Something that struck me for the first time today in my reading of the office and office of readings... St Matthew, who was a hate tax collector, brought with him to Jesus those that are sick and sinful as he is!  His conversion and immediate response to the call from Jesus brings with it others that are in need of the healer/physician!
Grandma got to do both of their hair... grandma is just taking it all in and not grabbing her phone this morning, so pictures are not coming.  Grandma is thinking about my dad and brother and the update is that dad might go home today, and Phil is having his angiogram now, my inner chapel is filled with prayers without ceasing! 

The Gospel today is about one of those that wrote the words of Christ for all of us to hold close to our hearts while we follow Jesus carrying/dragging our Most Cherished Cross and going down the narrow path!  St Matthew!!!  We just had the Gospel of Matthew as the Gospel for many months during ordinary time... I love his Sermon on the Mount!!  When I meditate on the Luminous mysteries/3rd Luminous/The Proclamation of the Kingdom... I look at Matthew 5 and around there - the Sermon on the Mount!
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A wonderful memory from 4 years ago... Romeo would be about 6 days old here... on the 15th he was 4 and grandpa was 64!  This was in Fort Leonardwood, MO.

I am missing out on family time, so this will be short today.  Jesus, we trust in you.  Bless-bless, Barb

14 “You are the light of the world. A town built on a hill cannot be hidden.15 Neither do people light a lamp and put it under a bowl. Instead they put it on its stand, and it gives light to everyone in the house. 16 In the same way, let your light shine before others, that they may see your good deeds and glorify your Father in heaven.'  Matthew 5

"Those who are well do not need a physician, but the sick do.
Go and learn the meaning of the words,
I desire mercy, not sacrifice.
I did not come to call the righteous but sinners."  Matthew 9 from the Gospel today!

Thursday, September 20, 2018

"her many sins have been forgiven; hence, she has shown great love."Luke 7 Simon is 14/Reconciliation/prayers in the hospital

Ruth shared this this morning after mass at the Catholic School... It is Simon's 14th birthday today and he did a reading at mass..."14 looks good on him." says his mom!  He is one lucky boy to be the oldest with 5 siblings, and all that will mean for him in his life to have many siblings to share his ups and downs.  Also he is blessed by having a Catholic School he can attend for this last year!  Mass each week and on Sunday with his family adds Faith to his daily journey!  I am going through that support, prayers and help with my 9 living siblings with my parents' issues.  

It was special to have realize that Simon was in the Gospel today!  I just read to dad the name of the Pharisee, Simon, whose home Jesus was invited to supper and the sinful woman came in and washed his feet with her tears and wiped them with her hair!!!!  That was me today!  I was gifted with reconciliation before mass today!  So amazing!
My brother, Phil, heading out to the heart hospital yesterday.  We just prayed around dad's bed, and Phil was a big part of that prayer!  We are awaiting word about his angiogram scheduled for this morning!  I just got word that the angiogram won't happen until tomorrow...
Mom and dad sharing the ongoing story of getting dad back home... today doesn't look to be the day he will get out!

It has been quite the morning around here!  Mom and I went over for mass about 7a and I was able to receive the Sacrament of Reconciliation before from Father!  I realize now that it has been about 6 months so I had some things weighing heavy.  Such a wonderful grace filled gift to be washed clean!  Receiving Jesus in Body and Blood was pure love pouring out upon me!  Why do I put it off???

The Gospel read the night before of the sinful woman... Jesus' words to Simon in the Gospel according to Luke;
"Do you see this woman?
When I entered your house, you did not give me water for my feet,
but she has bathed them with her tears
and wiped them with her hair.
You did not give me a kiss,
but she has not ceased kissing my feet since the time I entered.
You did not anoint my head with oil,
but she anointed my feet with ointment.
So I tell you, her many sins have been forgiven;
hence, she has shown great love.
But the one to whom little is forgiven, loves little."
He said to her, "Your sins are forgiven."
The others at table said to themselves,
"Who is this who even forgives sins?"
But he said to the woman,
"Your faith has saved you; go in peace."

These words read by Father just a short time after Jesus through him forgave my sins!  Nothing more wonderful for sure!  The Gospel truly came to LIFE in me!
Mom and I returned in the rain from mass to find the house locked up!  I amazed myself by crawling through my bedroom window that I had opened during the night!  I had to use a chair off the porch, and I kept telling the Lord that he had to help me, and it truly felt like he gave me that push I needed to get through the window and land softly on my bed!  Thank you, Lord, and lots of people telling me that they can't really envision me being amble enough to do it.  My guardian angel gave me that push and was holding the chair so that it didn't fall over!
My dad with a blood pressure scare this morning... his room was abuzz with nurses, doctors, and social workers, and family.  So when dad, mom and I decided to lift up all the issues in prayer... it was as if an angel stood guarding the door and we had an island of peace to pray to his St Ignatius, St John the Evangelist, Blessed Solanus Casey, and the Korean martyrs from today... We all were amazed that we were left to pray without interruption!  Divine intervention indeed, and we know not what lies ahead for my parents, but we trust knowing that it is all in His hands!
Mom resting after our big morning at the hospital, lunch, and both the icons of St Ignatius, and St John the Evangelist looking on... in Spirit also!  I will take their relic of Blessed Solanus Casey up to dad later on today!  He said that laying it on his tube has stopped the bleeding in the past.  We love our Saint in the making, Solanus Casey from John's cancer days to now!
Mom's roses drenched in rain!!!  We have had over 4 inches on the farm according to my husband farmer!  Some water in the basement even...  Has the hurricane come ashore this far?

Jesus, how I long that all that unconditional love and forgiveness I have been given will pour forth from me in "great love!"  At the end of my act of contrition all I could say is;"Jesus, I love you!"  Yes, I am so grateful and overwhelmed by your love for this sinful mess of a weak woman that I am!  But I did crawl through that window!!!  That was with your help... of that I have no doubt!  Jesus, we trust in you.  Bless-bless, Barb
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Happy 14th birthday Sweet Simon!!!  We will celebrate tomorrow with your Godparents here from KC!  We love you so much!  Thank you for your mature help on the farm.  
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Worth repeating this Truth and I am off to get my weapon/lifeline/beads!
5 years ago!!!  Simon and Hallel are very close as are their birthdays - just 2 days apart!  I just tried to call Hallel but she is out, so I will get to tell her happy birthday someday!  I did ask for their prayers for my dad, and that made the call so worth it!

Wednesday, September 19, 2018

Family birthday in Kansas City!! Family time supreme in the hospital! LOVE is patient....

  I love this wonderful picture of Birthday girl, Hallel, with Nancy's 2 youngest at Lumen Christi Monastery in KC yesterday!  Nancy spoiled me with some pictures from their hour with her for lunch...  
Love this special psalm on the wall behind her and the photo bomb by Dominic.  I would think that it was a gift from one of her little sisters as they are infused with the Psalms as they do all 150 each week!  LOVE when they chant the Psalms at prayer throughout the day.

We are so thrilled to find the chapter on love from St Paul to the Corinthians verse 13!  
Love is patient, love is kind.
It is not jealous, love is not pompous,
it is not inflated, it is not rude,
it does not seek its own interests,
it is not quick-tempered, it does not brood over injury,
it does not rejoice over wrongdoing
but rejoices with the truth.
It bears all things, believes all things,
hopes all things, endures all things.
I Corinthians 13!!!  Amazing and hard to live up to!
Dad back from surgery, and so sweet to see mom waiting for him... "There is my sweetheart, Nancy!"

We are in the midst of uncertainty here.. we discovered that one of my brothers was down the hall with heart scares!  I have been going between their two rooms and then discovered another family member there, too!!!  This small Wisconsin hospital is causing a family reunion and I am filled with much to pray about and visiting from one room to the next!  It is just such a family time supreme and so unexpected!  Still no doctors giving us what we can anticipate, so we are just praying and waiting.  The beginning of I Cor 13 is ringing loud and clear - "Love is patient!"
My youngest brother, psychologist Bruce, is our angel today!  He took the day off today to be there for both my dad and brother, Phil!  He is running errands for both and looking into dad's needs we anticipate as much as we can in this "foggy" time for my parents!  Thank you so much Bruce!
Bruce with mom and dad... navigating through the fog all around us.
I am overjoyed that Hallel could celebrate her birthday with family!  Nancy brought cheesecake for all!!!  And she made enchiladas for her and those little sisters living there with her.
Dominic bringing in the cake with Little Sister Ode!

I am uncertain of what I should be doing with my dad and brother... it seems like it will be hard to leave tomorrow with so much up in the air.  Bruce just reminded me that there are many opportunities to get them help, that he is investigating so I should in many ways just let go and let God.  It seems that God is currently opening and closing doors as he shows us the new path we are to take.  I am trusting that we will discover his plan and it will be just right for all involved!  Lord, I give the control over to you and Trust!
Little 2 year old Josephine is so lucky to have her Aunt Hallel and the experience of sharing in the lives of her Community of The Lamb!  Weekly adoration with her mother in their humble beautiful Lumen Christi/Light of Christ Monastery!!!  Out of this world in deep prayer and the True Presence of Jesus on the altar! 
You are one lucky girl, Bobo!!!  I love to see the Lamb around Hallel's neck... the sign of a professed Sister!  "I promise unto death!'
Sharing with the sisters there ... our family has been expanded by so many wonderful men and women through our daughter's "yes" to Jesus' call!
How providential that Nancy lives just 20 minutes away from the only foundation for The Community of the Lamb in the U.S.!  LOVE to see their smiling faces as they share family time together!!! 

Jesus, how I love you and in the midst of wave after wave of family time in the most unexpected ways and places... I sense your in control and that the plan you have for us is filled with the Cross and the LIFE/LOVE/LIGHT we receive when we embrace it!  May we die to self so that you may live in us!  Jesus we trust in you!  Amen and Hallelujah
I started from my house yesterday with the realization that I had no rosary with me!  I pulled over and looked under the seat of the car to find this!  What JOY!  It is less than perfect but filled my 4 hour trip with so much prayer as Our Lady took me to her Son, Jesus, for family and family and family!  With our combined families now over 200+... a lot of prayer is required!  Bless-bless, Barbara Mary Luke

From I Cor 13... these great words!!!
"So faith, hope, love remain, these three;
but the greatest of these is love."
Nice to know that all the tomatoes are in jars for a few days at least...  Ruth and I did 30 quarts of stewed the day before I left.  Now rain is making the farmers wait.
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I was pretty shook up when I realized had left home without one!  I was overjoyed to find one of my dropped ones under my seat!
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"For me prayer is a surge of the heart; it is a simple look turned toward heaven, it is a cry of recognition and of love, embracing both trial and joy." - St. Therese of Lisieux
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A memory from 5 years ago... Berna will soon be 6 on November 13!
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“Let us live as the Blessed Virgin lived: loving God only, desiring God only, trying to please God only in all that we do.” - St John Vianney
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"There is no problem, I tell you, no matter how difficult it is, that we cannot resolve by the prayer of the Holy Rosary.” – Sister Lúcia of Fátima

Tuesday, September 18, 2018

Happy 33rd Hallel... I thought the rain would let me come to be with you, but I am heading North instead

They bracketed our summer with their weddings!  We love you Hallel and wish you a wonderful 33rd birthday!

3 weeks after John and Bobbi's wedding we some of us made a trip to KC to see Hallel!  There were some fake plans flying around that if it rained, and it sure did, that we could sneak down to share her birthday with her today for the first time in 10 years! 

The Lord had different plans as it cleared the way for me to be with my parents in their time of need as dad is facing some challenges over the last few days. 
Only missing Hallel at John and Bobbi's wedding on June 2nd... I will add Hallel at some time as I do that to get the true and complete picture of all 26 of us together!  Hallel was with us in spirit and John and I talked to her just moments before his wedding on the phone... she was praying for us!

This picture will be outdated in March as we expect 3 new little ones!  Nancy and Bill will welcome #5, Maria and Captain Joseph will welcome #6, and John and Bobbi will have their first!!!  "March Madness!" is what Bobbi said when we got back from France and Maria shared their news!  How we love LIFE... open to LIFE and raising LIGHTS is asked of us by our amazing Church and we say "yes!". 
So happy birthday our sweet nun, little Sister Hallel!  It will be a special day as Nancy and her two youngest are bringing you Mexican food for lunch with the little sisters there in Kansas City.  We love you so much! 

Jesus, hold Hallel close to your heart burning with love for her.  Jesus, we trust in you.  Please be with my dad as he heads into surgery at noon.  Bless-bless, Barb
The feast on the hillside in the green space of the Holy Family!   How I will be celebrating in my chapel on wheels as I go down the road with my rosary beads in my fingers and prayer without ceasing! 

Sunday, September 16, 2018

Before Jesus took up his cross.. he was telling us to take up ours!!! He shows us how and gives us help!

Singing Pat happy birthday and God is blessing you now surrounded by many of his blessings!!!  Ruth and Paul's 6 and John and Bobbi on the path to parenthood in March!  We had just shared mass, and came to our fall decorated porch to celebrate Pat's birthday a day late.

While reading over the readings for mass today last night with Pat before bed after sharing evening prayer... it struck me that in the Gospel Jesus is talking to the disciples about the cross we must take up and follow after him even before he actually had been put there himself!  Wow!  The Cross is a stumbling block indeed knowing of the horrible death that Jesus suffered for us now after the fact, but imagine his words shocking and hurting them before he was called to embrace the Tree of LIFE/the Cross for us!
He summoned the crowd with his disciples and said to them,
"Whoever wishes to come after me must deny himself,
take up his cross, and follow me. 
For whoever wishes to save his life will lose it,
but whoever loses his life for my sake
and that of the gospel will save it."
Mark 8/the Gospel from mass today!
Some talk of starting bean harvest any time now!  Yes, Lord, give us harvest blessings!

James reminds us of how our faith is supposed to materialize in our lives, our families/domestic Church, our day to day lives, our every activity, our work... by works!
" of itself,
if it does not have works, is dead."  James 2
I am not the best at this, and I know that I need to do better in giving without counting the cost and when there is a need meet it in every way I can.  When I am at Ruth's house with the kids there are times I could be helping out more around the house instead of being on my computer or phone, or I could be reading to the kids or playing with them... Lord, help me to be better about not always wanting to do what I want to do.
Pat got home late last night and we sat out on the porch for his birthday supper.  It was special to use a cup from our village in France, Fanjeaux!   While we were there for the week was their town festival and Pat would go out into the square where the rock band would play night after night from 11p-4a!  He would get a glass of orange flavored beer in these cups that we now have to remind us of our adventure in France!  

"It was an experience like none other, and like most won't get to experience in that ancient town on a hill in rural France!  Those streets were crazy and probably 500 years old as was the Church at the top of the hill and our house just a block away!"  from Pat!
A family heirloom was presented to the Lanoue family after mass... a tiny rosary that is part of a bracelet on the Thooft  side of the family!
Mary models it... It was special to sit behind Ruth and Paul with their six at mass.  They were very reverent and well behaved!
 Joy started walking a month ago while we were in France!  She is very at home in church, as she has been there most every Sunday since her birth about 18 months ago.  Unless they were out of town... every Sunday.  It is hard to keep her shoes on... I imagine  that tile feels cool and smooth on her feet!
She can reach the Holy water and came back time and again.  It reminded me of Father Gerry, who encouraged us to play in the Holy Water at the Easter Vigil.  It reminds me of this great song..."taking a bath in it..."

Peter Mayer - Holy Now
 There is nothing better than to share mass with our extended family!  To see how comfortable and peaceful and engaged they are to the most important part of their week... receiving Jesus in His Word, Body and Blood!
Happy busy girl while...
The family is visiting in our beautiful church bathed in sunlight, and aglow on the inside after receiving Christ!

Rose was so cute during the creed... looking up at her dad with a glowing smile when we said her name - "rose again."  It is her special connection she discovered when she was about 3, and prefers to be called, Rose Again!
I had a lot of fun making a harvest table with corn from the fields and soybeans along with squash from the garden and apples from the tree!
 It looks like sweet corn, but that one is for the cows, livestock, oil, and many other products Joy!  Farmers feeding the world is about to kick into high gear any day now!
Apple fresh off the tree is much better right?

Lord, you promise us that no matter the difficulties we face that you will be our help!  I am so weak and poor at being a good servant, but I can do better with your help!  May I give without counting the cost, and live the motto of The Community of the Lamb..."Wounded, I will not cease to love."  Jesus, I trust in you.  Amen and Hallelujah
My champion for LIFE showing his happiness at being surrounded by family!  Pat's wisdom/the Holy Spirit speaking through him after our engagement weekend... we wanted a large family and no one else did!  "Are we being selfish to want a lot of kids?"  Pat's answer with no hesitation..."The world needs lights!"  Yes!!!   3 new grandchildren coming in March!  Bless-bless, Barbara Mary Luke
Family time supreme!!!  Fall looking fields and a hot breezy morning spent with family!
John's video if you missed it...
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How I love, love, love The Church!!!

I love this idea... who will I ask to join me today?  I am thinking St Patrick maybe or St Augustine, or St Bernadette, or St Agnes... I love the Saints!!!