Wednesday, July 31, 2013

Family fairtime 2013!

Little 15 month old Rose is starting to walk at the fair.  I found her barefoot and smiling out in the beef barn for lunch today.  Both Simon and Mary are showing a small calf tomorrow morning at the beginning of the beef show.  They are still in Cloverbuds, so there is not much pressure on them to have everything just so.   It was nice to see the two there very quiet and peaceful.  It is nice that they have each other.  They have been side by side in their little red barn, so this is just a new location but the same old friend at my side.  It will be the beef show in the morning and the pig show at night.  Pigs are new for our family,  but Ruth's husband, Paul, grew up showing both in 4H.  So the kids are expanding their horizons following in their dad's footsteps and shownig both beef and pigs.
Farmer Bob made the kids some balloon hats.
A cute Holstein steer looked like he wanted to join us for lunch.  Sorry - it's more like you will be lunch for someone in the not too distant future!   "You can't be serious."  says he with those pleading eyes of his. 
Farmgirl Rose looks pretty natural in the barn.  You have many years ahead of you around there, Rose.  With your new little brother coming - that could be another good 20 years of showing beef and hogs for your family.  It does fly by though.  Now we are starting over again with the grandkids, we put in our 20+ years and now after a few off we are back at it again.  We love the fair and it has been huge for family time in the summer!  Now grandpa is the Chairman of the fair board, and that means he is here most every waking hour of the day and night.  That must mean that he loves it, right? 
And he LOVES to share it with his little granddaughter, Rose Ida.  He loves to share the fair with his family - the best of family/farm/fair time!  Thanks, Pat, with all your hard work we have wonderful fair memories year after year, and generation after generation!  The county fair is definitely a tradition that is well worth all your time and energy.  You are a man, who puts much effort and work into something that you value and LOVE!  Jesus, we trust in YOU.  Bless-bless, Barb
The story of the flower in my hair.  I was working with photography in the open class yesterday.  A friend from years ago was busy with putting out potted flowers out around the fairgrounds.   She popped in suddenly and held this flower out to me and told me that it had broken off, but that I needed to have it for my hair.  "You always had a flower in your hair, Barb.  You need this!"  So sweet and such a step back in time.  Yes, I did always wear flowers in my hair and still will from time to time- I even wore it into Walmart last night when I ran errands.  Thank you, friend, for recalling my youthful days of wife and motherhood. 
Simon and Mary Lanoue will be in the show ring tomorrow morning with their small black calves.  They will have help showing since they are in Cloverbuds 4H. 
 
 
 

The fair begins today

I had to start with this great picture that Mary entered in open class and took the top picture for kids 15 and under - she is just 7!  It was taken in Michigan with Nancy's wonderful camera!  Great JOB Mary!  I, on the other hand, did only fair with my pictures and that is always humbling to look at them through other people's eyes.  I also got a real dose of humble pie this morning from another source, and I have that queasy feeling in the pit of my stomach that comes with knowing that you misstepped and blundered over someone's feelings.  I will keep this short today - realizing that sailing away with my thoughts and feelings seems to be not in the best interest always.  Today being the feast day of St Ignatius of Loyola marks it as a special day for our family also.  My parents were on the Ignation Exercises Silent Retreat when my dad heard the Holy Spirit tell him that they should become Catholic.   So I have a lot to thank St Ignatius for, and I do hope that someday I will be able to experience the Exercises - "shove the searcher into the center of the Gospel and leave him alone there with Christ, with the Triune God who speaks to him."  Fr Hans Urs Von Balthasar (1988)
Photo: Okay, have to share this too.  My niece took this picture this morning.  Michigan has the pretties wild flowers.  They just grow in the ditches.  Beautiful, right?
Another of Mary's pictures that she got a blue ribbon on at the fair!
Lord, today brings with it the sadness of using my words to unknowingly add to the hurt of another.  I am reminded that words not to be taken lightly.  Jesus, I am reminded this day by St Ignatius that more time needs to be spent in prayer - asking for your will to be shown to me and that I may be obedient to God's will for me!  I continue to thank and praise you for all your blessings upon our family since my parents heard your call into The Church 42 years ago.  It was just about this time that I was living in a Christian Commune in Colorado and starting to consider a call to be a sister, and my parents were at the Cenacle Convent in the midst of the Ignation Retreat - my dad was reading Isaiah 55:1-2 - in his silent prayer time the Holy Spirit spoke to him and told him that he should become Catholic!  So huge for a Protestant minister and his wife and 11 children!  I shared this story on my page about the 13 becoming Catholic, so I will not go at great length here.  Lord, how I love to share my story, and yes I am looking at the world through my eyes and that can be selfish if not watched closely.  Help me to be more considerate and to walk in other's shoes no matter how tight and uncomfortable that may be.  May I take up my Most Cherished Cross and follow after YOU - not counting the cost.  So grateful for Your unconditional LOVE and forgiveness.  Jesus, I trust in YOU.  Amen and Halleluia
Bless-bless, Barb
"Come to me heedfully, listen that you may have life."  Isaiah 55:3  The next verse after Isaiah 55:1-2 describes just what came to us when we listened to the direction of the Holy Spirit and came into The Church - we found LIFE eternal!  Here are the two verses ahead of this... so Eucharistic now that we know the food from Heaven - Christ's Body and Blood!
"The Lord says, 'Come, everyone who is thirsty- here is water!  Come, you that have no money- buy grain and eat!  Come!  Buy wine and milk - it will cost you nothing!  Why spend money on what does not satisfy?  Why spend your wages and still be hungry?  Listen to me and do what I say, and you will enjoy the best food of all.' "
 
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=PO_YUOAA1HU 
Danielle Rose singing Small Things with Great LOVE


 

Tuesday, July 30, 2013

46 years ago - I was 15 years old and my whole life changed!

I have never had this date nailed down in my mind - the day that my 4 adopted siblings lost their parents - but today my sister, Cheryl, announced that this was the day of their most horrific loss!  I am feeling deeply moved by this as I can now know that I was 15 when we got the shocking news that the Dorn family had all been in a horrible accident - both parents had been killed and the 4 kids had all been hurt as a drunk driver had hit them coming home from a drive in movie early in the morning of July 30th,1967.  He hit them driving the wrong way on the road head on!  JoAnn, the mother, had said shortly before this that she did not want her kids separated if anything should happen to them.  Adding 4 children to a family was a lot to do, and none of the close relatives felt that they could manage it.  But the Holy Spirit spoke to my dad and told him that we should add them to our already 7 children - I being the oldest at 15.  This was a hard move for all of us!  Yet, I see how much my life has been blessed by adding the 4 to my most cherished siblings.  The Cross called Family has brought us all to newness of LIFE together.  The hardship and pain of loss has caused us to grow ever more in LOVE!  Just as when a new little one enters a family LOVE grows - it doesn't get stretched more thin... so our LOVE has gone outside of the normal bonds and entered into a caring and more compassionate place called a family that is open to all that the Lord is calling to enter it.  I considered adoption in my own family to expand our horizons, but due to the farm and other issues it was not to be.  Instead I have found a spiritual expansion of my family through our involvement in a young people's retreat called Together Encounter Christ!  I also have those 7 in heaven that continually brings my eyes and heart to My Heavenly HOME!
I now have a date for this picture too... it must have been August 1976 as we have just taken the 4 into our family.  We are introducing them to our beloved Michigan, and the youngest, Carol, who was in the front seat with her parents at the time of the crash still has the cast on her leg.  I think that all of us were still in shock, but most especially the 4.  Suddenly their parents are gone from this world - how earth shattering!  A lot of emotions and feelings are flowing all around me and within me and through me today.  There is something very solid and deep about having an actual date to place all of this.  I just knew vaguely that I was close to graduating and that we all then moved to Minneapolis as a family the summer after I graduated high school - the summer of 1969.  So we had two years to try to blend the two families together in Flint.  I think that the relocation to Minnesota really helped to give us all that shared new start, and was huge in bringing us to that place of LOVE and acceptance called Family/domestic Church!  Minneapolis brought us to becoming Catholic as a family of 13 after we started attending Charismatic prayer meetings at a convent and through that door we entered the world of Catholicism!  For the entire story you may go to my page devoted to this - http://familysoulstory.blogspot.com/p/the-amazing-story-of-13-becoming.html  Sharing the move and starting afresh for all of us in a new city/state was huge in our coming together, but the conversion, as a family, into The Church was tremendous in our LOVE!  So powerful to recall just how amazing that first Communion was - all 13 of us receiving Jesus in His Body and Blood on Christmas Eve 1971 at the Cenacle Convent in Wayzata!  Life has never been the same for me since then... I am forever changed and am HIS!
New Catholics at the farm in Wisconsin.  We no longer had the Big Lake to go to, so my parents bought a building site in Wisconsin where we could go as a family to get out of the craziness of the big city and bond as a family while we made the house livable - we never had running water only a pump outside- and to grow a big garden for the family.  I think of the wisdom of my parents as they gave big thought and took very seriously raising us and protecting us from harm whether physical or mental or spiritual... they really were amazing parents and still are - I am so blessed!
Jesus, today marks a huge event in the world I live in with the other 13 members of my family and now with the marriages and openness to LIFE we are getting close to 100 members!  We are all changed and brought to a place of deeper sense of LIFE/LOVE/LIGHT by this day 46 years ago.  Understanding the loss is so hard and a mystery we will not know until we meet you face to face.  Continue to work in and through our family as we grow ever larger in your LOVE within your domestic Church/FAMILY!  May we continually be childlike with wonder and awe at all the ways you have touched our lives with your special fingerprint of possession - we are yours and may our prolific fruit show the world that we are yours alone.  Jesus, we trust in YOU.  Amen and Halleluia
Bless-bless, Barb
"As far as the east is from the west,
so far has he put our transgressions from us.
As a father has compassion on his children,
so the Lord has compassion on those who fear him." 
Psalm 103 - the psalm from mass today and shared by the faithful all over the world today that is powerful - talk about an army of voices praising their LORD to the highest heavens!!!  This is called a grand Hallel psalm! 
One of my favorite pictures from "the farm" - Cheryl washing her hair at the pump.  We entered the pioneer days and I do recall that Cheryl loved the Wilder books - Little House on the Prairie and all. 
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=bW5unzXXC0k  Casting Crowns - Come to the Well!!!  "Leave it all behind...."
Bonding family time away from the distractions of LIFE - no TV. 
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=WyoVJfADlwo  And I have to include this from Casting Crowns - East to West after the Psalm for today! 
Newly moved to Minneapolis as a family growing to LOVE!
 

Monday, July 29, 2013

"I shoes/choose you,Jesus." Susan/Hallel

Today the big county fair week begins.  I am using some of the pictures I am entering as I write this short sharing today.  This one is my black and white other - I love the shadows of the kids - most especially little Rose prancing in the middle of the kids!  She is now starting to truly walk on her own!  John left the house this morning talking something funny about a quilt square that Susan made for the quilt from the kids that happened over a number of Christmases.  "She got some crazy fabric with tennis shoes on it, and wrote I shoes you mom, I shoes you dad, I shoes you John, I shoes you...Jesus."  I would have to locate the quilt in my closet and look at it truly for the first time, because I must admit that I didn't notice all this at the time it was given to me.  I just thought that it was a silly outrageous fabric with no idea that a deeper thought went into it.  Why John thought of it today as he was going out the door... maybe because he is often thinking about Susan/Hallel and the very deep impression she made on him.  Just above him in age - they shared much together from her watching over him as children and even saving his life to sharing a couple years in the high school together.  I can just see John in my mind - aware of the unconditional LOVE and acceptance that Hallel showed to all.  John considers her the best of most anyone he knows, and he is always aware that she is lifting us up on prayer and very much so - John as he is asking the Lord - "What next for me, Lord?"
My color domesticated animal... I love it!
Little Sister Hallel is now a contemplative nun in France, and we miss her very much.  Yet there is a great blessing and grace knowing that she is lifting us up in prayer!  And as we learned through the Gospel of Mary and Martha with Jesus today on the feastday of St Martha - that is the "better part" and it will not be taken from her.  Yes, work is needed and Hallel does spend her day in a lot of manual work - wood working quite a bit..."Martha was rebuked not for her work but for allowing her work to make her lose sight of love."  How often do I do that?  I do my work with a sense of resentment and anger - that robs me of the LOVE with which I am to serve those in my domestic Church/family! 
Black and white people
Jesus, I shoes YOU!   I love you and want to become more and more your disciple - striving to gain sainthood someday.  To join your angels and saints at your feet giving you endless and glorious GLORY and Praise without end!  I am that little one in the midst of your wondrous family - Your Church!  I have your wonderful Mother, Mary Most Holy holding my hand and helping to walk on my wobbly feet.  St Martha is there also helping me and showing me how to have Faith in YOU no matter what - her brother, Lazarus, was dead and she believed in you bringing him to newness of LIFE - resurrected from death!  There are so many in my family that I pray for daily that they may come to LIFE and emerge from the darkness of the tomb called the culture of death-lies-Satan who is deceiving them!  May we all lay our sins and burdens at your feet and aided by all that your Church has to offer us in Sacraments, Your Word, Angels, Saints, and sacramentals, and Mary the Mother of God!  There is more than we could ever fathom there for us to hold our hands and bring us always down your narrow path carrying our Most Cherished Cross and coming into your LIGHT/LOVE/LIFE!  Jesus, we Trust in YOU.  Amen and Halleluia
John putting his many Tshirts on the line with Our Lady of the Clothesline looking over him! 
Bless-bless, Barb
So wonderful to have John here - each day we pray and rejoice over his healing.  Listening to Pat pray this morning and how he without fear or hesitation asks the Lord to heal those that are suffering with cancer and ALS... this is after he thanks God for the many healings we are aware of - two in our own family with John and grandson, Patrick!  We know that the Lord answers those constant and recurring prayers that we ask of HIM.  We also know that the Lord has a wonderful plan for John - how he loves to share what God has done for him, and how his half-hearted prayer for Faith was answered so powerfully and changed his life - making him the new John! 
http://dnu.org/news/documents/JAN.2013MASTERISSUE.pdf  If you haven't had a chance to read John's story - here it is!  It is quite amazing!  I know that John would say without hesitation today - "I shoes you, Jesus."  And so the journey continues - taking some time off of seminary to find the work for him and write his book?!?
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=WyoVJfADlwo  Casting Crowns - East to the West
Finally a wonderful story of protecting all life no matter the cost - http://www.lifenews.com/2013/07/24/father-of-priest-who-saved-down-syndrome-baby-from-abortion-died-saving-down-syndrome-son/  Jesus, hear our prayer for LIFE this day.  End the culture of death and bring those that are confused and misled into the LIGHT of day!  
Brought from death to new LIFE - healed is our precious Patrick!
 
 
 
 

Sunday, July 28, 2013

Fair pictures 2013

Tomorrow is entry day for pictures - here are some that I am entering....

Color - humor

Color - other


Color children!!!  Jesus, we trust in YOU.  Bless-bless, Barb

"That Lady is always with me - I love her a lot!" Rose Ida

I didn't get a lot of smiles out of Rose yesterday, but the sweetest loving smile came from her when she patted and kissed the statue of Our Lady in my Mary Garden.  It was so beautiful to watch her older sister, Mary, who is now 7 show the same kind of instant unreserved LOVE for Mary since she was 1 year old too!  So beautiful and quite miraculous to see the recognition that this Lady is special to us.  Yes, she has a statue at her house too, and is very familiar and a true sign of being special and to be held close to our hearts.  Today in the Gospel we ask Jesus to show us how to pray the way that He does - "we want to experience the union and confidence that Jesus experiences when he prays."  see www.magnificat.com We constantly request something of Our Lord and He listens and answers our call for help!  When the Gospel was read in mass this morning we all were thinking about John and how we stormed heaven along with hunderds of prayer warriors... "And I tell you, ask and you will receive; seek and you will find; and knock and the door will be opened to you.  For everyone who asks, receives; the one who seeks, finds; and to the one who knocks , the door will be opened..."  Luke 11 Pat leaned over to me after this was read and asked me if I was thinking about John too?  We pestered God like crazy when he had cancer, and he answered all those prayers!
So sweet!!!
How wonderful to have that confidence - "the disciples beg to live their lives with the certainty, passion and conviction of Jesus Christ."  We are filled with the knowledge and LOVE of our spiritual family - the Father, the Son, and the Holy Spirit dwelling within us.  Then we also have the Mother of God along with all the Saints and our guardian Angels watching over us.  We can be certain of LOVE/LIFE/LIGHT that are filling us and directing us as we live in the Spirit and cry out with recognition - "Abba, father!" 
Jesus, may we come to YOU and know that we can give without counting the cost as YOU have demonstrated to us in taking all of our sins/dead in our transgressions -"he removed it from our midst, nailing it to the Cross."  Colossians 2: 12-14  We can leave those sins behind in the confessional and then walk with great freedom into our world - domestic Church/family- giving and serving without the weight of our selfish desires and wishes.  Jesus, we trust in YOU.  Amen and Halleluia

Bless-bless, Barb
"Are you unaware that we who were baptized into Christ Jesus were baptized into his death?  We were indeed buried with him through baptism into death, so that, just as Christ was raised from the dead by the glory of the Father, we too might live in newness of life."  Romans 6:3-4
The royal carriage...  such a glorious view and day!

Pasture full of wild flowers and clovers!
Hearts unfold like flowers before thee!!! 
Sister Act 2 - Joyful Joyful We adore thee!   Sunday JOY - I really felt a peacefulness and contentment being in mass next to my husband and son today!  I thought - "we really should yearn to be here with YOU, O Lord.  We should be so filled with JOY at the presentation of Your Word!  And join in the worship as Heaven comes down to earth at the Banquet of Heaven and earth when we eat Your Body and drink Your Blood and find LIFE eternal!  Thank you, Lord, along with Your Father and Mother, Mary Most Holy... I love you with my LIFE!" 

Saturday, July 27, 2013

Pat and Rose - how we show our LOVE

A most beloved and special toy (?) in our home.  A wonderful wooden mass set complete with wonderful wooden hosts that the kids have played with and now the grandkids.  Rose was especially sweet today making herself a place to sit on the shelf and putting them from the chalice to the ciborium. 
It is a big farm bureau weekend for Ruth and Paul and family, but little Rose would not be getting her regular routine and that could be hard on her and mom and dad, who are in charge of 3 days of activities from overnights at SMSU and meals and all the meetings and activities.  So Rose is finding a peaceful haven with grandma, grandpa and John.  Pat tried to put her to bed in the crib, but she did not like that so  they ended up sleeping in a big bed upstairs.  "She was so good for grandpa, and slept peacefully all night long."  Then Pat launched into a very heart rendering story that he had read somewhere.  He shared about an adopted 4 year old, who had severe attachment disoreder.  "His mother stayed by him around the clock.  The first few weeks were hell for them, but eventually the little one discovered that he was loved and wanted by her constant being there by his side day and night!"  I could see how this physical reminder of there being total LOVE and acceptance no matter what.  It could be for that child, who was neglected and left alone in a crib in some foreign orphanage, the rebirth into a feeling foreign and hard at first, but eventually the abiltity to reach out and touch and know that even though he fought it at first - it is like the sunlight that warms and fills with LIGHT the plant and the darkness can fade from the memory and healing and growth can take place!  So good to have that HOPE to cling to for these children. 


Checking out Our Lady watching over her... today is the day - Saturday - devoted to Our Spiritual Mother, Mary Most Holy!
"To hope in Mary, the Mother of God, who can really obtain grace and eternal LIFE for people, is to do something very pleasing to the heart of God.  For God desires to see Mary honored in this way, that same Mary whom in this world he loved and who loved and honored him more than all angels and all people together... She is the mother who gives birth to Holy Hope in our hearts."  St Alphonsus Liguori (1787)


Rose is beginning to walk!
Jesus, with your glorious Mother at your side, we are filled with such HOPE as we turn to YOU through her intercession and feel the graces flow out upon us through your Holy Spirit within our hearts, minds, souls this day and forward.  May we carry you always in our hearts as we serve without counting the cost - most especially those within our domestic Church/family.  For it is within that family with those that we are the closest to that we struggle with the patience we need to LOVE them without thought and desire to self.  Our Lady shows us the beauty of being humble and giving of our all, so that the Lord may be born to our world  and LIGHT may chase away the darkness of sin and death.  Jesus, we trust in YOU.  Amen and Halleluia

Bless-bless, Barb
Fairtime is just around the corner! 
Litany of the Mother of God

LITANY OF MARY,

MOTHER OF GOD



Lord, have mercy,

Lord, have mercy.



Christ, have mercy,

Christ, have mercy.



Lord, have mercy,

Lord, have mercy.



Christ, hear us,

Christ, graciously hear us.



God the Father of heaven,

have mercy on us.



God the Son, Redeemer of the world,

have mercy on us.



God the Holy Spirit,

have mercy on us.



Holy Trinity, one God,

have mercy on us.



Holy Mary,

pray for us.



Holy Mother of God,

pray for us.



Holy Virgin of virgins,

pray for us.



Mother of Christ,

pray for us.



Mother of the Church,

pray for us.



Mother of Divine grace,

pray for us.



Mother most pure,

pray for us.



Mother most chaste,

pray for us.



Mother inviolate,

pray for us.



Mother undefiled,

pray for us.



Mother most amiable,

pray for us.



Mother most admirable,

pray for us



Mother of good counsel,

pray for us.



Mother of our Creator,

pray for us.



Mother of our Saviour,

pray for us.



Virgin most prudent,

pray for us.



Virgin most venerable,

pray for us.



Virgin most renowned,

pray for us.



Virgin most powerful,

pray for us.



Virgin most merciful,

pray for us.



Virgin most faithful,

pray for us.



Mirror of justice,

pray for us.



Seat of wisdom,

pray for us.



Cause of our joy,

pray for us.



Spiritual vessel,

pray for us.



Vessel of honour,

pray for us.



Singular vessel of devotion,

pray for us.



Mystical rose,

pray for us.



Tower of David,

pray for us.



Tower of ivory,

pray for us.



House of gold,

pray for us.



Ark of the covenant,

pray for us.



Gate of heaven,

pray for us.



Morning star,

pray for us.



Health of the sick,

pray for us.



Refuge of sinners,

pray for us.



Comforter of the afflicted,

pray for us.



Help of Christians,

pray for us.



Queen of angels,

pray for us.



Queen of patriarchs,

pray for us.



Queen of prophets,

pray for us.



Queen of apostles,

pray for us.



Queen of martyrs,

pray for us.



Queen of confessors,

pray for us.



Queen of virgins,

pray for us.



Queen of all saints,

pray for us.



Queen conceived without original sin,

pray for us.



Queen assumed into heaven,

pray for us.



Queen of the most holy Rosary,

pray for us.



Queen of peace,

pray for us.



Lamb of God, You take away the sins of the world,

spare us, 0 Lord.



Lamb of God, You take away the sins of the world,

graciously hear us, 0 Lord



Lamb of God, You take away the sins of the world,

have mercy on us.



V. Pray for us, 0 Holy Mother of God,

R. That we may be made worthy of the promises of Christ.



Let us pray:



Grant, we beg You,

0 Lord God,

that we Your servants

may enjoy lasting health

of mind and body,

and by the glorious intercession

of the Blessed Mary ever Virgin,

be delivered from present sorrow

and enter into the joy

of eternal happiness.

Through Christ our Lord.



Amen.






Looking good Mary!

too welcoming Rose?

Friday, July 26, 2013

A day with Rosalita - farm girl photos are fun for grandma!

Bibs and a dog on the round bale mountain is pretty cool for Rose Ida on a day with grandma - not too old for a good old adventure around the yard - on the lookout for farm photos!
I mean a mountain of bales!!!  Rose is feeling pretty special upon her throne in the sky!
Talk about a throne!!!!   Notice the shoes - she is walking for the most part, and grandma thought that shoes would be helpful.
Now on the ground in the garden - using plastic tarp and tires to keep the weeds away.
Little girl big corn and always on the lookout for those dogs.
Giving our Blessed Mother a hug and kiss!   Much like her sister Mary before her!  She will love Our Lady too! 
She knows that she is a special lady, who will be with her always on her journey of LIFE/LOVE/LIGHT!
A special smile by the bins...
Dipping her feet in the water tank is a real farmgirl experience that not many little girls can say that they have had.  You are one lucky farm girl little Rose Ida, and this is one happy farm grandma.  Very blessed with Faith, Family and Farm!  Jesus, we trust in YOU.  Bless-bless, Barb