Sunday, May 31, 2015

Dad update - having our parents is a gift!

Pat with his mom this morning - as an Eucharistic minister he can bring mom the Bread of LIFE/Jesus in his Body. This precious picture of  Pat feeding his mother and the intent faith filled looks on their faces as they acknowledge that this is Jesus!!  Such a wonderful moment in which Pat can care for his mom's spiritual needs in such a deep and personal way surrounded by our family sharing Jesus in his Word as well as the Sacrament of LIFE - the Eucharist! 
Such a sweet picture of my parents!  Mom had just told us that our Friday fast meal would be creamed tuna on toast!  I hadn't had that for 40+ years, so I was certainly excited and my dad thought it was a great idea, too!

My mom just called with an update on dad.  No, he did not come home today, because he had some atrial fib which they are treating with meds first.  So, even though he is looking good and feeling good... it will probably be a day or so before he comes back home.  "Is he lonely?"  No, he is sending people home or telling them not to come.  He is liking his quiet, which he is not getting much of.  He is getting a lot of attention from the nurses and the doctors."  My mom has been on a big adventure with my brother, Phil, today.  They went to mass in Stillwater, had lunch, went down to see dad at Vets, then checked out the bowling alley/restaurant he has been hired to manage.  Lord, I know that you are holding dad in the palm of your hand.  It is so wonderful to still have our sharp and alert parents in our lives.  Jesus, we trust in you.  Bless-bless, Barb

More photographers in the family and she is only 7! Trinity LOVE!

Maria shared this great picture of David with is pet snail yesterday!  But wait til you see the pictures T took of the snail close up!  I am thrilled to have another budding photographer and she is only 7 years old!  I have my girls - all 3 and two with amazing cameras that I can now borrow from regularly... so there are many loving eyes recording our lives!  Add that to the thousands of pictures I take monthly and it is an avalanche which is burying me regularly in LIFE/LOVE/LIGHT unending!

Therese, I am in awe of this picture you took!  The colors and the textures and the lighting - It is a prize winner!  Did she lay it out or just snap this naturally?  It is wonderfully great!  It really helps that they are in the lush East coast and no longer in the desert Southwest, but I am very impressed to have the younger girls coming up in the ranks.  9 year old Mary also is winning awards with her great eye in 4H!

It has been a full morning already with early morning work with the cows, mass as a family with Ruth and Paul with their 5 and John.  Then carry forth the Eucharist over to Pat's mother's home complete with reading the readings, sharing the homily, prayers and Eucharist, followed by the hymn - Beautiful Savior!  Then wonderful egg bake thanks to RaTerra!
 Great-grandma grabbed ahold of Mary and held her close throughout the service we shared.  Mary has always loved her great-grandma and prayed for her diligently.
 A house full sharing and caring...
 Smiling and happy Luke is ready to eat in the middle of our Eucharistic service.
 Pat's mom with her arm around her Mary - sharing Jesus!
 Pat is so much like his mother in how he loves the little ones!  His arms are rarely empty, if he can help it.  Those big loving arms have held many babies over the years.  It brings so many smiles on those in church that watch him helping keep the little ones contained and contented. 
 The love of LIFE is so shared and lived out in these two - mother and son, who are open to and LOVE LIFE!  Much sharing today on The Feast of the Trinity about the LOVE relationship which the mystery of 3 in 1 - Father, Son and Holy Spirit!  The Catechism teaches - by sending his only Son and the Spirit of LOVE in the fullness of time.  God has revealed his innermost secret:  God himself is an eternal exchange of love, Father, Son, and Holy Spirit, and he has destined us to share in that exchange.  So wonderful to have this visual evidence of that LOVE of LIFE before us this day and always.
 Grandpa keeping Luke happy with some food while we pray and share our Faith/Family/Farm!
 Luke takes a bite from his grandpa, who loves him and cares for him and shares with him the life of the farm, the joy of family - being open to LIFE and raising LIGHTS, and the Faith which is first of all!
 The Communion antiphon for today: Since you are children of God, God has sent into your hearts the Spirit of the Son, the Spirit who cries out:  Abba, Father.
 "The Body of Christ." 

The words of Jesus to us today at the end of the Gospel- Matthew 28:20
All power in heaven and earth has been given to me.  Go, therefore, and make disciples of all the nations, baptizing them in the name of The Father, The Son, and of the Holy Spirit, teaching them to observe all that I have commanded you.  And behold, I am with you always, until the end of the age.
We need to start doing this first of all in our domestic Church/home!
 A kitten we raised from a wild kitten deserted by it's mother last fall.

Jesus, we are into ordinary time again, yet how can the mystery of The Trinity ever be anything but the highest of Feast days?   The LOVE of the 3 in 1 is so evident in our openness to LIFE, raising LIGHTS in the LOVE of Faith we have with Jesus and His Bride, The Church!  We truly do cry out "Abba" "Daddy!" "Father" when we are loved and cared for with such tender loving care in the big powerful loving arms of a wonderful Father/grandfather/husband.  Jesus, we trust in you.  Amen and Hallelujah

Another stunning picture taken by 7 year old Therese!  I think that I will retire and just use the pictures taken by my family now.  Bless-bless, Barbara Luke
I am quite sure that my dad will be coming home today after his heart valve replacement on Thursday morning.  Amazing!

This man died in Aushwitz to save the life of a father with children! 

More words of encouragement from a modern day Saint!
Hawk Nelson - Drops in the Ocean
Newsboys - We believe
Father Robert Barron's photo.

Saturday, May 30, 2015

Working on graduation cards...

Guess the caption for this one... sweet!
 You are never alone.
A beautiful future lies ahead!
Time to step out the world awaits!  Some runners for my homemade cards... maybe I will mix it up this year rather than make them alike?!?   Bless-bless, Barb

"lest you forget..." Dueteronomy 8:11 Blessed Virgin Mary never does!

 Making pies with the grandkids yesterday I had many curious helpers... Luke and Rose helping me pat down the crumb crust on top.  We have already eaten two of the 4 with many big and littles eating here yesterday.  A true farm day with dinner at noon and supper at night and lunch in between.  We are in the midst of breeding many so lots of time watching and locking up and AIing! 

I am in the midst of wave after wave of LIFE filling me with wonder and awe at how I am in between two worlds here and Heaven!  I am aware that I am overly involved in the 7 little ones I have in heaven, and now 3 grandchildren joining them.  I have heard that there is a possibility that maybe I suffered from post partum and it never was dealt with so that is why they are with me on this journey.  I would want it no other way, and I feel that they are in heaven to pray for me and help me on this journey of LIFE/LOVE/LIGHT, and it just shows how much help I need!  Why now so strongly?  I recalled that 4 years ago Maria was here to meet newborn Gus and lost her baby, and now Nancy at the same time and with much the same experience!  Was it actually the same day?  Looking back Maria lost hers on June 3 and Nancy a few days ago on May 28th!

Maria showing me a picture of her baby at 6 weeks in the ultrasound taken when she started spotting while here visiting Nancy with her newborn, Augustine, 4 years ago- the baby had a heartbeat!  She lost it a few days later here at home, and then returned to her husband in Missouri.  We didn't dare travel back due to her uncertain pregnancy.  Now 4 years later we have just, once again, had an early loss with Nancy, who was 6-8 weeks along with a baby with a heartbeat.  She lost it hours later.  She is already getting pressure to say that she is glad that this happened and to forget this small glitch and concentrate on the 3 little ones she has.  Of course, she knows that she is blessed to have her children, and to still be nursing her youngest son, who will be 1 in a few weeks, but we feel so strongly about all LIFE that we grieve their loss to us.  We do, however, feel that they are in a better place with Our Lord and The Blessed Virgin Mary in heaven, and that they continue to be in our lives calling us to look to heaven and praying for our journey to get there and meet them and join them!

 I prayed so hard that my girls would not have to go through this, as I did 6 times with my 7 losses - one was 2 sacks, so I call them twins- yet, I am coming to realize that it powerfully keeps us focused on heaven!  I have named all mine - Christopher, Thomas, Joseph, Paul, William, Robert, and Mary.  I thought that I couldn't carry girls and then John snuck in there and the last one I was hopeful that if it were a girl I would not lose it... not to be.  How I longed to have one more after John to show the world that I didn't quit because I had finally had my boy.  The answer was no to that, too! 
 Rose helping grandma cut the pie crust dough.

Maria getting roses from her husband to show his love and support in the midst of such powerful emotions and LIFE events 4 years ago...

In the midst of my pondering this day of these oceans that run so deep in me... the Biblical words lest you forget came to me... I googled it
Deuteronomy 8:11-18English Standard Version (ESV)
11 “Take care lest you forget the Lord your God by not keeping his commandments and his rules and his statutes, which I command you today, 12 lest, when you have eaten and are full and have built good houses and live in them, 13 and when your herds and flocks multiply and your silver and gold is multiplied and all that you have is multiplied, 14 then your heart be lifted up, and you forget the Lord your God, who brought you out of the land of Egypt, out of the house of slavery, 15 who led you through the great and terrifying wilderness, with its fiery serpents and scorpions and thirsty ground where there was no water, who brought you water out of the flinty rock, 16 who fed you in the wilderness with manna that your fathers did not know, that he might humble you and test you, to do you good in the end. 17 Beware lest you say in your heart, ‘My power and the might of my hand have gotten me this wealth.’ 18 You shall remember the Lord your God, for it is he who gives you power to get wealth, that he may confirm his covenant that he swore to your fathers, as it is this day. "

This is so true for me!  My little ones - now adding grandchildren to that number/prayer army/LIFE force in heaven - cannot be forgotten or left behind for me as they remind me every day of where I am headed and how I need Jesus and His Bride, The Church, each day to get there!  My 5 here with me do give me so much JOY to share our Faith, love of Family and openness to LIFE and raising LIGHTS in The Church... but to have that other foot over into Heaven with my now 10 there is where I keep knowing that I surely need help to get there, and lots of it!  I need to get out of the way so that the Holy Spirit may use me, and I do feel that sharing this message is an important one in this world where LIFE is not valued and babies are killed in the womb!
 Luke making tire marks in my pie crust!  How I love that as it reminds me of my little Johnie getting his cars and tractors every time I made pies to make tracks through the flour as I rolled out crusts! 
My JOY is to have such wonderful chances to have a fresh wave of LIFE engulf me!  Even the hard ones of losing LIFE to heaven and making that army stronger!  

Saturdays in The Church we celebrate the greatness/humbleness of The Blessed Virgin Mary!  How appropriate in my ponderings today and the emotional state I am in due to once again sharing this deep experience of a short LIFE in our wombs with another one of my daughters!  From the Magnificat this day in morning prayer;
God wills that everyone be saved: set free, made whole, brought to the joy of the kingdom.  Mary pondered and did the will of  God not reluctantly, out of a sense of martyred duty, but with her whole heart, in delight.  see
How I long to do this better in the ups and downs of LIFE/LOVE/LIGHT!
Nancy with baby Gus Gus 4 years ago...  Happy Feast day today, Nancy Anna Joan of Arc! 
Such a strong patron Saint - turn to her and The Blessed Virgin Mary to fight for you in the battle for Truth in this world that LIFE is a gift to be protected and cherished no matter the cost!
Jesus, I am yours and only long to do your will in all that comes to me with my life journey.  The Cross is to be embraced to find LIFE/LOVE/LIGHT/Jesus as we go forward down the narrow path.  Lest we forget that we are nothing without you and all that we gain in this world other than our Faith and our Family is worth nothing.  May we die to self so that the Holy Spirit may work in us and use us to change the world/the culture of death into a culture of LIFE.  We are weak and we need you, O Lord.  Jesus, we trust in you.  Amen and Hallelujah
John 4 years ago watching for heat with Lilly and curious cow.  Today they are out AIing many... the cycle of LIFE around and around.  Bless-bless, Barbara Luke
Saint quote #1
John's Patron Saint Augustine is always a good one! 
I love this and it is why my little ones assist me in longing to join them someday!

Isaiah 49:15New International Version (NIV)

15 “Can a mother forget the baby at her breast
    and have no compassion on the child she has borne?
Though she may forget,
    I will not forget you!"
One more for today!  Just as we are not forgotten how can any of our little ones be forgotten by us? 
Holy Mother - Eric Clapton... he was in the depths of despair due to drug addiction and found comfort each day since from Mary!
Holy Mother - Eric Clapton and Pavarotti
Danielle Rose - Memorarie - Hail Holy Queen Mother of Mercy Our LIGHT our Sweetness and our HOPE!

From Maria's blog today of the kids bowling with dad!

Friday, May 29, 2015

"He is a young 90 year old." dad's nurse at Vet's today

My wonderful parents taken on my dad's 90th birthday in March!
A week ago on Saturday morning I was sharing time with my parents in their lovely home. We shared the morning prayer/office together led by my dad... Deacon Robert!  He then asked us to pray over him as he prepared the best way possible for his upcoming heart valve surgery with PRAYER and trust in Jesus!  It was beautiful to pray over my dad, and to hear the wonderful words from my mother for her dearly beloved!  We all ended our prayer together feeling so much peace and trust in Jesus. 

Now my dad's surgery was done yesterday, and he came through fine.  The valve is in place with no leaking and it is bovine/cow!  These cow and calf people are smiling to think that dad now has a tiny peace of cow in him - giving him a new lease on some better years with us.  My mom has returned home, because she has seen my dad leave the ICU and now in a regular room with all of his tubes out and the nurse told her that there are old 90 year olds and young 90 year olds..."Bob is a young 90 year old."  Yes!  We have all seen that and with his hearing us now due to the cochlear implant we are so blessed to have him fully with us!  I love to have him share and teach me from his deep study of The Word and spiritual reading - we share the same LOVE for The Church and that is wonderful to the highest heights to share with my parents! 
Visiting with my brother, Dan, and his wife, Angela over last weekend.  United together keeping watch over dad and mom at this difficult time.  While mom is back at home... my sisters are spending time with dad - visiting him when he is not napping.  Soon my parents will be together again, and dad will be at home - the best place to get better.  They say he could be able to come home as soon as Sunday!  We are thrilled!  Mom reported last night in her update about how they all were so impressed by dad's sweet gentle disposition.  I am sure coming out of anesthesia that can not be helped.  So for him to be sweet under such extreme circumstances says a lot! 

We love you dad, and we are so glad that you are recovering like the young 90 year old we all know you are!  My dad is one person in my family that reads my blog and gives me wonderful positive input.  It means so much to me!  His ministry in The Church has filtered down to me, and I am forever grateful for my parents bringing all 13 of us into The Church!
Bless-bless, Barb

Our Lady is watching over dad, and comforting him - she hears our prayers with a Mother's heart filled with care and love! 

The tree of the Cross is never without fruit!

 David showing me the kittens and how they are growing today. 

Much emotions dropping as the rain on me this day...  My dad is slowly recovering from his heart valve replacement in ICU at Vet's hospital in the Cities.  It went well and now to regain his strength and get rid of the many tubes he has including oxygen.  It all makes him look sick and hard for my mom and sibs to see him that way.  We all assure ourselves that his health was OKed by the doctors for this and he will come through fine. 
There was a roller coaster with Nancy and Bill yesterday... they had an ultrasound and their little one was there with a heartbeat.  And then a few hours later sadly they lost it.  This same thing happened with Maria here visiting about 4 years ago now.  She had come with me from Missouri to see newborn Augustine, who just had his birthday on Monday!  So it truly did happen at this same time 4 years ago.  She was pregnant and started to spot, Pat took her into the ER and they did an ultrasound and saw the heartbeat, and the next day she lost it.  This is so mind boggling for me!  It is as though they are there showing their LIFE and LOVE with each beat of their hearts!  "Mom and dad, I am a LIFE and I am going on the heaven to be there and send my LOVE for you.  I am free from the worries of this world and someday we will meet when you come to join me."  Nancy is sad and weak today, but has a baby in her arms and can accept this. 
 The kittens have taken over the playhouse!

Jesus, today in the Gospel you were disappointed by the fig tree having no fruit... yet, we know that the tree of the Cross is never without fruit.  How do we know this?  First of all we look at how we gain LIFE through your Cross, and that you ask us to take up/drag/carry/embrace our cross and follow after you.  So often we see in our lives how we find LIFE/LOVE/LIGHT though the crosses in our lives!  Being open to LIFE brings us to find LOVE everlasting - those that are here with us and those in heaven praying for us and keeping our eyes focused on heaven as our goal!  May we continually cleanse the temple of our souls and not allow distractions to keep us from you.  Jesus, we trust in you.  Amen and Hallelujah
 Playtime in the playhouse... oh the joy of having siblings to play and fight with - 6 healthy kittens!  I have Ruth's 5 kids today and you could say the same thing about them.  Nancy is finding comfort in her 3 little ones, too.  And Maria has been blessed by her 4 with her and 2 in heaven.  As Therese says; "When we get to heaven we are going to have to have a big van for all those kids!"  You certainly know that they are each a LIFE and we hope to meet them someday, Therese!  Bless-bless, Barbara Luke
 How can I be sad with this sweet face looking at me with such JOY and adoring eyes?  Impossible!
Two for good measure...

I have become a big fan of this woman's wisdom!

Both brought salvation into our world!  And both speak so powerfully of humility we are called to.  I am getting a large dose today and it is painful to say the least!

Danielle Rose- Litany of humility
Danielle Rose - wonderfully made
A heart beating with love and life and light no matter how short we will cherish always!
From Maria's sharing yesterday calling it Romeo is tied to her apron strings...  Yes, she is very loved and blessed! 
Holy Mother by Clapton and Pavarotti