It just feels so good to have this gift of an unexpected day today, and realizing that I have not had a day to clean and organize for a month now. I know that Nancy is doing much the same today in her new home as her stuff is in her home and they slept in their bed for the first time last night! It is so crazy as we all are on this similar track in our moves and major changes we face. It certainly has put us in a weak and lowly and humble place where we need to look to Jesus with each step that we take.
The amazing 51st Psalm today is so appropriate for me on this journey of my life at loose ends lately...
My sacrifice, O God, is a contrite spirit;
a heart contrite and humbled, O God, you will not spurn.
I am overwhelmed by changes like this in my life... I do not do it well and change is grating and hard and scary and dirty and hard and shaky and miserable and sickening and overwhelming and dusty and reason for anger and harsh words and just plain old tiring and a lot of hard work! One good thing about it is I see how weak and sinful and selfish and lazy I am and that makes me humble and low and weak and when I discover that self - I need Jesus, and I turn to him. All I want is Jesus morning, noon and night!
Jesus, I need you! Jesus, I want you! Jesus, all I ever want is to die to self so that you may live in me and I may be on the narrow path carrying/dragging my Most Cherished Cross and moving toward heaven forever with you! I thank and praise you that I have been given this small slice of heavenly gift today of a suddenly free day to dig in and feel more at home and blessed in the midst of this craziness of change. May the fruits of the Spirit reign in our hearts, minds and souls -Galatians 5:22-23New International Version (NIV)
22 But the fruit of the Spirit is love, joy, peace, forbearance, kindness, goodness, faithfulness, 23 gentleness and self-control. Against such things there is no law.
O Lord, how I long for these fruits to come forth in my life! Jesus, we trust in you. Amen and Hallelujah
This is where I am a lot these days and it is hard to say "Yes, Lord, I will follow after you."