It has always been a powerful connection for her death to occur on the feast of St Thomas the doubter. Mary had been through some rough patches on her journey, and was in a good place with her finding her path, so we find some comfort in knowing that she was in a good place at the time of her death. Reading in the Magnificat starting last night with a reflection and the readings for today... I was very blessed by the sharing about how St Thomas is the patron of builders and construction workers in a cool way! He went to share Christ in India, and the king gave him money to build a palace and then left for a few years..."Thomas preached with great fervor, converting many. He distributed the money to the people(poor)." Of course, when the king returned he threw Thomas into prison until his brother who had recently died appeared to him..."He told him how the angels had brought him to a marvelous palace in heaven. 'This is the palace that Thomas built for your brother.' The Apostle explained to the King...'In heaven there are countless palaces, prepared from the beginning of time, and they are won by prayer and the giving of alms.' " Wow! I pray for the soul of my sister a lot! I have a decade of the chaplet just for her journey! How I felt like St Thomas has helped her there to find her palace filled with the Thomas I lost this day with her, and all of my losses!
How I giggled this morning as John and I were sharing The Magnificat morning prayer at breakfast and I wept at the thought of losing her shining light from my life and that of her husband and child, who are doing well by the way! John and I have such a love for Mary the Mother of God and of course when you talk about heaven and the palaces there for us, as we stagger down the narrow path with heaven forever with Jesus as our only goal! Looking at the pictures of beautiful Mary, my sister, with her long dark hair..."I can picture the two Mary's in heaven braiding each other's beautiful long hair" and sharing all the fruits of the Spirit!
I just am so filled to the brim with this new look at St Thomas! Such a powerful message to us to strive always towards that spot made for us in heaven through prayer and almsgiving, which would include giving of ourselves without counting the cost! Yes, he doubted and Jesus dealt with him lovingly but firmly telling him that he needs to go forth to India to share The Truth! He didn't want to do that as he did not know the language... "Jesus appeared to him in a dream and told him to make the journey" and we know the rest of the story! The King decided to become a Christian as the result of Thomas trusting in the Lord and facing death in the eyes. Yes, my sister did find death from this world at a young age and we find it hard to understand the ways of the Lord, but her death has certainly kept my eyes focused on heaven and that is always a good thing, right?
Delight with the Lord in your smallness today. Leave the world behind, if only for a moment.
Remember that we are called to be like children.
Called to trust.
Called to laugh.
Called to rejoice and enjoy all that is around us.
Remember that you are small, and God is so very big. Rest in that knowledge today, and rest in Him.