Monday, December 6, 2010

Light is so special and meaningful this time of year!

Maria and the kids helped me put up the tree before I had to leave and work at Birthright tonight... as Maria said as I was leaving... "Grandma's going to save lives."  When little Therese asked why grandma is leaving. 
Maria showed me how much my working for Birthright had affected her after all of these years...I have volunteered for Birthright since my first year of marriage... 32 years!... as soon as she was at college... she worked for prolife!  She carried a crisis pregnancy phone for the last few years and I heard her in the midst of life... take a call and calmly talk to a girl that was in crisis and have her come in for an ultrasound at the center where she worked in St Paul!  For these women to "see" that there truly is a baby in there is the best way to help them to carry them to term... The truth of life is brought to LIGHT!
Life is so precious and there is no more wonderful way this time of year to celebrate the fact that our God loved us so much that He took on the amazing life and love of a small helpless human child...than to look upon these little sweet children that the Lord has blessed Maria and Joseph with!  Thank you Lord!  Jesus, we trust in you!  Amen and Halleluia!
Bless-bless, Barb
"The only true joy on earth is to escape from the prison of our own false self, and enter by love into union with the Life Who dwells and sings within the essence of every creature and in the core of our own souls."  Thomas Merton...New Seeds of Contemplation

St Nicholas feast day........

During naptime...or maybe when the other cousins are here for lunch... Maria has plans to secretly put some candy in their shoes to commemorate the feast of ST Nicholas - Santa Claus! WE will have a family lunch after some snow pictures as they are all arriving in snow clothes... Now grandpa is reading toTherese from her Bible that mom and she just found in their boxes in the basement... He is reading to her the Gospel for today!
Today is the Gospel from Luke where friends lower the paralytic into the presence of Jesus to have his sins forgiven/be healed....  How we love that reading as we have just experienced that to the max with all those that lowered us into His presence - the prayer warriors who we feel are shoulder to shoulder with us in the battle against cancer over the last year...

We received this wonderful drawing from the Little Sisters in Kansas City soon after we had discovered John's cancer... this totally expressed how we felt peace in knowing that we were in the hands and prayers of our friends and lowered to Him!  We are forever touched and healed!

I had looked at my scanned pictures for this one of John being lowered before Christ... I discovered other "snow pictures" from Pat's family, my family and our family... you can tell that I have snow pictures on my brain with having grandkids here in their colorful snow clothes shortly... 
From the Gospel today - Luke 5: 17-26  "And some men brought on a stretcher a man who was paralyzed ; they were trying to bring him in and set him in his presence."  How often do we do this with those that we love?  We yearn for them to know of the "presence" of Christ and be healed of those fears and hurts that are paralyzing them in their lives!

"But not finding a way to bring him in because of the crowd, they went up on the roof and lowered him on the stretcher through the tiles into the middle in front of Jesus.  When Jesus saw their faith, he said, 'As for you , your sins are forgiven.' "  This reminds us that we should not give up... no matter what crowds us from his presence... we need to continually put our paralyzing needs and friends and family before him!  Persevere! 
"Jesus knew their thoughts and said to them in reply,'What are you thinking in your hearts?  Which is easier to say,'Your sins are forgiven', or to say,'Rise up and walk?'  But that you may know that the Son of Man has authority on earth to forgive sins' - he said to the one who was paralyzed, 'I say to you, rise, pick up your stretcher and go home.'" We all know that until we rid ourselves from the bondage of our sins in confession that we are paralyzed in the knowledge of our weakness and smallness and our illness... what we don't know and remember is that the Lord comes to us and carries us in those times of humility and weakness!


"He stood up immediately before them, picked up what he had been laying on, and went home, glorifying God."  We hear so often that John's healing is a miracle that so many were a part of!  A young girl in our confirmation class remembered the mass where John was prayed over with the relic of Venerable Solanus Casey and annointed...."I started praying for him every day after that, and now I found out that his cancer is gone!"  Her prayer became real and powerful at that point for she had lowered John into the presence of Christ.... and he had been healed! 


"Then astonishment siezed them all and they glorified God, and, struck with awe, they said,'We have seen incredible things today,' "    Just the other day on caringbridge a special friend wrote: "I believe we have witnessed a miracle in John's healing, life changing for all who joined him on the journey. Thank you Jesus for allowing us to see this."  I know that John and his family feel this way, so it is wonderful to hear it from our friends/ prayer warriors! 
St Nicholas is a wonderful kind and caring man, who was a bishop in the 300s... he was wonderful and loving towards the needs of children while alive and after his death... He is wonderful to keep in mind to put those children in our family in his presence that are in special need... finding themselves in difficult situations in their families...Here is more about the true and special Santa Clause... intercede for those little ones that need you!

Thanksgiving many moons ago... probably in 1975 or so....
 Now for St Nicholas..."One story tells of a poor man with three daughters. In those days a young woman's father had to offer prospective husbands something of value—a dowry. The larger the dowry, the better the chance that a young woman would find a good husband. Without a dowry, a woman was unlikely to marry. This poor man's daughters, without dowries, were therefore destined to be sold into slavery. Mysteriously, on three different occasions, a bag of gold appeared in their home-providing the needed dowries. The bags of gold, tossed through an open window, are said to have landed in stockings or shoes left before the fire to dry. This led to the custom of children hanging stockings or putting out shoes, eagerly awaiting gifts from Saint Nicholas. Sometimes the story is told with gold balls instead of bags of gold. That is why three gold balls, sometimes represented as oranges, are one of the symbols for St. Nicholas. And so St. Nicholas is a gift-giver."  see http://www.stnicholascenter.org/Brix?pageID=38

Another story about ST Nicholas interceding after his death..."One of the oldest stories showing St. Nicholas as a protector of children takes place long after his death. The townspeople of Myra were celebrating the good saint on the eve of his feast day when a band of Arab pirates from Crete came into the district. They stole treasures from the Church of Saint Nicholas to take away as booty. As they were leaving town, they snatched a young boy, Basilios, to make into a slave. The emir, or ruler, selected Basilios to be his personal cupbearer, as not knowing the language, Basilios would not understand what the king said to those around him. So, for the next year Basilios waited on the king, bringing his wine in a beautiful golden cup. For Basilios' parents, devastated at the loss of their only child, the year passed slowly, filled with grief. As the next St. Nicholas' feast day approached, Basilios' mother would not join in the festivity, as it was now a day of tragedy. However, she was persuaded to have a simple observance at home—with quiet prayers for Basilios' safekeeping. Meanwhile, as Basilios was fulfilling his tasks serving the emir, he was suddenly whisked up and away. St. Nicholas appeared to the terrified boy, blessed him, and set him down at his home back in Myra. Imagine the joy and wonderment when Basilios amazingly appeared before his parents, still holding the king's golden cup. This is the first story told of St. Nicholas protecting children—which became his primary role in the West."



Yes, that is me with my dad... a bit evident that I was the first precious child by all the photos of me...  Now I am heading out to capture some snowball pictures with the grandkids!  Jesus, thank you for all the special parts of each day!  Your Gospel and amazing readings that are there to teach us with the mass that is celebrated throughout the world at every single Catholic Church! Now that is universal and we can all together be blessed by your holy Word - your Healing Presence among us and be fed by your heavenly Food - the Eucharist - your true Body and Blood!

"The compassion of Jesus is the compassion of forgiveness.  Many people were locked in guilt, feelings of unworthiness, broken hearts and spirits, fearful of God.... Jesus came to reveal the forgiving face of God, a God yearning to reveal love and communion... To forgive is to call back and to reveal that the person is loved, cherished, and full of worth;

"to forgive is to liberate from the broken, crushed self-image, from feelings of guilt.  Forgiveness is to refind the kiss of peace, the kiss of the covenant, and then to celebrate unity."  Jean Vanier      "Forgiveness implies an understanding of our own poverty, wretchedness, brokenness, and sin; it implies too an openness to receive the hand and words of love."  Thank you, Lord, for our smallness and in that smallness the willingness to be lowered into your presence by our friends... and as a result of the forgiveness of our sins - our healing... we all "glorified God, and struck with awe, they said,'WE have seen incredible things today!"  WE are all forever changed and healed and will continue to persevere in lowering our friends into your healing presence! Amen and Halleluia!
Bless-bless, Barb
"They will see the glory of the Lord, the splendor of our God.  Strengthen the hands that are feeble, make firm the knees that are weak, Say to those whose hearts are frightened:  Be strong, fear not!  Here is your God... he comes to save you.  Then will the eyes of the blind be opened,the ears of the deaf be cleared;  Then will the lame leap like a stag, and the tongue of the mute will sing."  Isaiah 35: 1-10 The first reading from Mass today!  Too amazing!  Jesus, we trust in you!

Sunday, December 5, 2010

The first week with a house full...

The second advent candle takes light!  One of the new kittens is in the middle of the advent wreath, and knocks over the statue of Mary and Jesus... no damage is done... the hectic noise and activity level of having little ones... a 2 1/2 year old, and a baby that will be one of the 21st, along with two 8 week old kittens, and a loud and football watching grandpa... at times it is a bit of a craziness that makes me want my empty nest...

Yet the life and energy and the love and hugs and kisses and times they crawl on our laps and speak to us in their baby and love language... the times we laugh at their antics fill us with the joy... and the times... when our home is empty except for the two of us...that we are alone or dissappointed with each other on our opposite ends of the house each watching our own shows on the TV... they have bridged the gap...they have made us forget about ourselves and focus on them, and their mom, and their happiness now that their lives have been turned upside down with this huge change in their family and lives... we are made better and happier to share their lives now!  We love family and are blessed to be reminded of that fact! 
Thank you Lord for reminding us of the truth that an empty self-centered home is never better than a full one filled with laughter and love and sometimes yelling and crying and craziness... the sounds of family and all that means!  Jesus, we trust in you!  Amen and Halleluia! 
Bless-bless, Barb
"Joy is prayer.
Joy is strength.
Joy is love.
Joy is a net of love with which we can "catch" souls."  Blessed Teresa of Calcutta

"The earth shall be filled with the knowledge of the Lord..." Isaiah 11

 
"The earth shall be filled with the knowledge of the Lord, as water covers the sea."  Isaiah 11 - from the first reading at the second Sunday of Advent mass today!  So often I think of the love of family and our Church family as a big ocean of love, so this really caught my eye and pulled at me this morning...
Then these amazing words and images... I am sure that you have seen the paintings of the small children with all these beasts!          "Then the wolf shall be a guest of the lamb, and the leopard shall lie down with the kid; the calf and the young lion shall browse together, with a little child to guide them.  The cow and the bear shall be neighbors, together their young shall rest; the lion shall eat hay like the ox.  The baby shall play by the cobra's den, and the child lay his hand on the adder's lair.  There shall be no harm or ruin on all my holy mountain..."
Such a beautiful peaceful and loving picture...  all the fear is gone and all the danger is taken away... there is total trust and sharing of this world - a world filled with the knowledge of the Lord! How I long to be able to share that with those that are unaware of His Love for each of us... Total, free, faithful and fruitful love - the Love that He has for His Bride... the Church!
Dear Lord, How we long to see your face in all those hard and "savage" things in our lives..."So John preaches that "we might have hope" in the one that will come with "The Holy Spirit and with fire,"  who will tame what is savage in wild beasts, who will put a halt to harm and to ruin."  Thank you Lord, for that promise... To have the freedom from fear as cancer entered our lives in a very personal way in the last year and a half... we truly "laid our hands on the adder's lair."
We just finished a tea party with ice cream after the kids got up from their naps!  One thing about having ice cream at her tea party is that even grandpa will show up!  No, he wouldn't drink the tea..."That's for girls!"  he and Davey said...
Sunday afternoon high tea!  Serve ice cream and you never know who will show up! 

Now I feel like I need to leave this slow moving sharing for today...I guess that Church and family filled it up and that is always a good thing!
Jesus we trust in you!  Amen and Halleluia!  Bless-bless, Barb
"Peace begins with a smile."  Blessed Teresa of Calcutta

Saturday, December 4, 2010

The beauty of Motherhood!

So beautiful to be able to watch my daughter with her two young children so closely and warmly.... They have been raised without computer and internet, so there is not much of the electronic distractions going on.  We just watched a video on St Elijah after supper for the last few nights before bath time... This is their daddy's patron saint and also very important in the miracle of the widow... with Halell's community of the Lamb!  How I loved those wonderful nest years and to have them living here with us... I can once again experience the simple joys of motherhood... feeding them, snuggling with them, bathing them, reading to them and a surprise!  Daddy just called to talk to them for 5 minutes!  They were all bathed and mommy was putting them down for bed... the phone rang... daddy's ring!  Therese got on the phone and in exciting happy terms told him; "I am at grandma's, I have tea parties and I had a popcicle after supper!"  All the important things that daddy needs to know, right?   Most importantly she told him that she loves him, and he can hear that she is staying happy and content while he is away from them!  Thank you Lord, and Jesus we trust in you and thank you for all the gifts that family gives to us!  Amen and Halleluia!
Bless-bless, Barb
"Where does love begin?
In our homes.
When does it begin?
When we pray together.
The family that prays together stays together."  Blessed Teresa of Calcutta

Woke up to a sunny white and glistening day, and JOY!

I walked out of the bedroom to the sound of laughter and delight! Therese had found the stretchy bands that John had used for therapy on his arm and leg... to her and her 11 month old brother and the two kittens they were colorful strings to chase and get tangled in!  As mom said to them... "get all tired out so that you take a nice nap!"
Little Alice (Allie) likes how it looks from an upsidedown angle.......too cute... on the cuteness scale of 1 to 10... definitely a 10!            Maria shared with me what their day had been like... starting with first Saturday mass and confession... How do you do that with 2 little kids?  I guess we don't have secrets in our family, and to go to confession with 2 1/2 year old ears there with you... could be interesting someday.  I will ask her how she manages it and get back to you on that...  
Then they all went to Great Grandma and Ratera's house... It turned into a morning of familytime... David took a nap in the bedroom and Ratera and Therese made lunch for everyone while Maria ran errands minus kids... that rarely happens for her.  All in all Grandma had it quiet for sleeping after working all night and Maria and the kids had some family time...
So amazing to wake up to the activity of little ones... kids and kittens...They are so happy and comfortable here and it is a wonderful gift for us too!  The house it full of LIFE!  WE are blessed!  Then the big news!  Little Sister Hallel had tried to call all of us and finally gotten ahold of Nancy and they had talked for an hour!  She hadn't gotten the news that John was cancer free, so she had called...  She knew that the scan was to happen and needed to know the results!  We had tried to let her know by calling KC and the Little Sisters there, but the message had not gotten passed on.  At least we got to talk to her as a result of the breakdown of communication!
Nancy told her dad that it is the same old silly/goofy Susan... It is kind of wonderful for her family to realize that no matter what lifechanging experiences she is having... that no one will ever alter the person and personality that is underneath!  We have not lost Susan/Hallel... we have just gained many more members of our family!  It would have been good to talk with her, but I am happy for Nancy to have such a nice silly conversation with her Hallel!  I am sure that the baby was a big topic of conversation!  I know that Susan/Hallel has not had a chance to talk to her since the wedding and the new life news!
Little Davey is almost as involved in chasing the streamers as the kitties... For sure he follows everywhere his sister goes so that he can see all the action... usually as he is wrapped up in the middle of them with all the commotion!  Grandma's camera cannot snap fast enough to catch it all!  That's what you get when you try to take a movie of a lot of crazy activity with an old still camera!

"I will restore you to health; of your wounds I will heal you, says the Lord.  From them will resound songs of praise, the laughter of happy men (and children).... they will not be tiny, for I will glorify them."  Jeremiah 30: 17a,19             Pat is in watching Saturday college football, Maria after a short nap is washing dishes, and the kids are sleeping quietly after all the busyness of a big day ending with some activity back and forth in the house... the kittens are in a sunny spot and snoozing too!  Baby animals and kids are what started me on my journey called..."Never go anywhere without your camera!"  Oh yeah... one more thing... a hunky farmer husband didn't hurt getting me hooked on taking pictures to store all of the love and amazing things to see all around me!  My 5 kids left home for college with a scrapbook for every year they had been alive!  That is a crazy lot of pictures... talk about trying to have a big movie of their lives taken with still pictures!  I know that when Maria and Joe were dating... they would take a scrapbook a week to sit down and share together...even Maria's awkward years were shared - now that is a sign of true love... sharing that humbling time in your life...
There is not much about Maria's life that Joe missed... when they were done with all of that!  Now with digital...they are in my computer and on my blog... Therese will have to sit at a laptop to share with her future spouse!  I know that it is a bit overwhelming, and a lot of bagage too... sorry about that kids!  It is just that the farmlife with babies and baby animals and hunky farmer husband were too much for me to allow to fade into the sunset!  All the hours I have spent on pictures would rival the hours I have spent in prayer and that is not a good thing... I know and ask for forgiveness, dear Lord and your wonderful Mother of all!

"Where is my girl and her colorful ribbons?"  The psalm in the mass readings for today is called an Hallel psalm... there are many around Psalm 100 and the last 5... Psalm 145-150 are called "Hallel Psalms"... this means Praise and Joy and supreme worship of God!  Think of the word "Halleluia" which is obviously the root word and you will see what it all means! 
Psalm 147
Praise the Lord, for he is good;
sing praises to our God, for he is gracious;
it is fitting to praise him...
He heals the brokenhearted
 and binds up their wounds.
He tells the number of the stars;
he calls each by name.

Great is our Lord and mighty in power:
to his wisdom there is no limit.
The Lord sustains the lowly...
Blessed are all who wait for the Lord.
The Gospel for today... I can hear Hallel's community as they chant and sing these amazing words and actions of Our Loving and Forgiving Savior..."Jesus went around to all the towns and villages, teaching in their synagogues, proclaiming the Gospel of the Kingdom,and curing every disease and illness.  At the sight of the crowds, his heart was moved with pity for them because they were troubled and abandoned, like sheep without a shepherd...."  Mt 9: 35- 10:1
His words to us as He felt such pity for those that are lost..."Go the the lost sheep... As you go, make this proclamation:'The Kingdom of heaven is at hand.' Cure the sick, raise the dead, cleanse lepers, drive out demons.  Without cost you have received;without cost you are to give."  Mt 10: 5a, 6-8        So many around me... everywhere I go...are as lost sheep...How can I make a difference?  My heart is broken to hear of their confused and misled and sad lives without the knowledge and love of God.  I will continually lift them up in prayer and love them... I can do that!
"This is the way; walk in it."  From the first reading of the mass Isaiah 30... How powerful it is to know that there is a path laid out before each one of us to walk and to follow!  I am forever changed and filled with wonder when I view my personal PATH!
Amazing meditation of the day today written by Fr Simon Tugwell... see http://www.magnificat.com/          What the Twelve Proclaimed............"Whatever our problem is, whatever the anxiety we bring to the Lord, he has got only one thing to say, only one answer: himself... The only solution that God has to offer to all our problems is himself, is the fact that he is, that he is the kind of God that he is, a God who has a Word to utter,which he utters in an ecstasy of Joy, and ecstasy of giving,which we call the Holy Spirit... God has only the one thing to say, which is himself, he has only the one thing to give, which is himself.  And he invites us to hear the Word, to treasure it in our hearts, and to find in it the source of all our bliss.  He wants us, quite precisely, to enter into the Joy of our Lord (Mt 25: 21)... We must accept that God is the kind of God who, if he wants to show himself in our world, must do so in weakness and poverty..."
"God has never promised that if only we have enough faith, if only we pray enough, all problems will disappear... So we must respect the law of God's giving, letting him give what he does have to give, himself... This peace, this joy, can never be shattered because it's foundation is in God's own infinite joy and peace."            Lord, we cling to you and know that we are loved and that fills us with JOY and Peace without end... no matter the storms of life that wash over us... you keep us afloat!
Well, I have written through the kids naptime and the activity is soon to begin again... Jesus, we love you and are filled with the joy that we see in the little ones in our midst!  What a ministy these little innocent ones have to the world! May they change it for the better ast they pass on your peace and Joy!  Jesus, we trust in you and thank you!  Amen and Halleluia! 
Bless-bless, Barb
"I , the Lord, am with you always, until the end of the world."  Mt 28: 20