Family Soul Story - Choose Life!

The Pat and Barb Verly family and their 5 children, in laws and grandkids along with many prayer warriors have been drawn together by John's cancer... sharing daily for 8 months started this blog- Family Soul Story - Our faith, family, farm and now our cancer journey called HEALING have colored and deepened our world. WE continue to share and depend on the support of our prayer warrior community, that has lowered us into the Lord's presence for His healing!

Monday, October 31, 2022

Pictures for me are personal - the open house/"I busy not myself with great things..." PS 131

Joy showing grandma around the airbnb Ruth and Paul just completed - The Parsonage. Vintage is what Ruth's theme was in all her 2nd hand shopping. Showing me the conversation corner with vintage phone.

The picture was pointed out by some friends as reminding them of a Verly girl. With 4 daughters and then John - dark and curly and fun describes my 4 girls!

How does Rose know how to act out the old fashioned phone we had in our homes?

I have been told by my kids that I get emotionally attached to my pictures, and I do see that I want to have family in them and to be able to tell a story, too!

Mary just back from National FFA convetion and a 7th place in Meats for Marshall - investigating her mom's open shelving in the kitchen - milk glass collection from many thrift shops - "None are the same" Farm sink and cat clock with eyes and tail that go back and forth.

Steady stream for the open house, and the kids ate many cookies!

Birdie found a yummy cookie and a soft pillow on the foutan couch.

A happy place!

So special to see the setting sun from the living room - Street light on Main street and the sunset in the West. Being right downtown is no joke even in Marshall, MN!

Area rug from a friend worked out perfectly - Pat with his "buddy" Tom and the setting sun.

We have plans to gather at John's tonight for a Halloween gathering and they will go trick or treating around their neighborhood right by the Catholic School.

A peaceful gathering space.

So special to see the Church lit up at night - steeple and widows after mass. And the reflection of Paul and his Aunt and Uncle.

Talk about a special picture in so many ways!

Always have to take 3!

The picture in the dining room - could be a future one of our red haired Joy Jean.

The clock and the sink and the view of Rehkamps of old.

Joy showing me the lost sheep room complete with soft pillow and rug under your feet when you get out of bed. A milk can as the bedside table. Ruth with the vision and does the work!

There is so much in the mass readings today - one verse that especially spoke a personal note for me was the Psalm 131 today - I busy not myself with great things,
nor with things too sublime for me.
R. In you, O Lord, I have found my peace.
Nay rather, I have stilled and quieted
my soul like a weaned child.
Like a weaned child on its mother's lap,
so is my soul within me.
R. In you, O Lord, I have found my peace. Psalm 131

With 2 daughters nursing babies right now and having nursed all 5 of mine... this is such a picture of Truth! When Tom is with me for the day while Ruth is working hard - he sits in her lap and begs to nurse. "Only morning and night now", and I can see that he is content with eating and drinking on his own. He is close to being weaned and taking that step to maturity and peace.

I too am content with my sharing here to keep is small and the few that give me input of liking what I share and to continue is the wind beneath my wings. The motto of St Mother Teresa comes to mind - "I do small things with great love." I have no desire to have millions of downloads as Nancy's Catholic Sprouts does. Yet, her ministry is so important for families and children to learn the Catholic Faith and Truth! The Catholic Sprouts Podcast - Catholic Sprouts

Two of Nancy's girls - Bernadette and Josephine making Halloween treats in Delano.

Tom napping in grandpa's arms at the Prolife breakfast put on by Birthright yesterday. "Bobble head!"

After dark - The Parsonage sign through the front window.

Joy, Tom and kitty on a peaceful Sunday...

John 9 years ago in Jackson, MN as he just started a job as an Extention Agent there post brain cancer. It did not last very long. He is now on disability and cares for his children while his wife works and works at an after school program at the Catholic School.

Ever since he battled brain cancer 13 years ago - he fell in love with Our Lady in Lourdes and how we share her LOVE daily with rosary...

Family Soul Story - Choose Life!: John's cancer stories

Spirit Juice video to share his story that continues now with wife and children!

John and my hour of Adoration overlap from Sunday night to Monday morning - we shared special prayer last night - Night prayer complete with John singing as he did with his seminarian brothers the year he discerned the priesthood. So beautiful! He sang in English and then in Latin - Salve Regina - Hail holy Queen.

My swim instructor shared that she will have "Catholic music" tomorrow as background as we do our aerobics on All Saints Day! LOVE

Salve Regina - Gregorian Chant - the Little Sisters and Brothers sing the first version and makes me weep for the beauty of it! One of these might be as John and the Seminarians sang it together in their chapel before going to be each night. John loved this time!

A special picture of Rose 10 years ago! My dog Roger chccking on her, and big brother David looking to see if the cows have feed. "Grandpa needs to feed them." LOVE my personal farm memories with my family! That is how I so addicted to picrures - babies, baby animals and a hunky farmer husband, who is always doing something interesting and picturesque on the farm!

Jude and Birdie at Trunk or treat!

Halloween 9 years ago in front of the picture window on the farm! Ruth had a theme of Little red Riding hood that year - I suggested that Joy be Little Red this year and Tom be the little bad wolf - time will tell.

Blessed Solanus is so important for us - A relic brought to pray over John was instrumental in his healing!

The meats team with coach, Sharon! Great Job!!!

7th place in the nation!

LOVE this!!! When I pray the litany of our 2 families at Adoration - over 250+ by name! I end my prayer with this prayer for all those that we love and call FAMILY!

Ruth found this and painted it for the welcoming place when you enter The Parsonage to stay in comfort in downtown Marshall, MN. Right across the street from the Catholic Church!

With our 5 year old redhead, Joy! A friend shared that she went to the open house - "Joy was welcoming people, and I said; 'Is your name Joy?' She looked very surprised that I would know her name." Yes, she is one of the few that actually reads what I share!

5 dozen cookies were very good!

A little spot in the yard for enjoying the nice weather. Yes, that is a fireplace contained. Ruth said that she and Tom were out there today - "An old squirrel acted like he would come right up to us. The squirrels in town are very tame and not shy." Adventures to be had wherever you are, we guess!

Give Thanks! Bobbi said that it looked very pretty when you walked by the alley and looked into the warm bright pretty inviting place Ruth and Paul have created with work and vision!

https://abnb.me/VEXUuBulyub - the site for this on Airbnb

Black and white Joy was a perfect addition to this for grandma! Thanks Joy for being such a willing and happy model for grandma!

Now Ruth joins in matching black and white, too!

A picture of LIFE! Lord and Lady, how we pray that this wonderful home may be a place of happiness and peace and joy. A haven in times of loss and times of bringing families together in marriage and reunions and any other reason for coming to special Marshall, MN! Be with Ruth and Paul in this venture and use it to your honor and glory. Jesus, we trust in you. Amen and Hallelujah

Such a beacon of LIGHT - my champion for LIFE and for Family! "Be not Afraid." Bless-bless, Barbara and the 54 - 34 with us and 20 in heaven.

Yes, from conception to natural death.

Jude came with dad and grandma had fun spoiling him - watching 101 dalmations in great-grandpa's chair and popcorn and grandpa pop with apple slices. Blanket to keep him warm, too!

LOVE this from my dear old dad today in his Prayer of The Church! I miss him, yet he continues to teach and bless me after bringing all 13 into The Church 50 years ago! Each day since has been total GIFT to me! LOVE you dad and I know you are praying for your family of 140+ as you did each Monday first and middle name of your 34 grands and now 60+ great grands! You amaze me!

Family Soul Story - Choose Life!: The amazing story of the 13 becoming Catholic!

Now from mom and Pope Benedict XVI! She read this for 10 years and I am on my 2nd time! So full of Knowledge of the Truth! LOVE you mom, and thanks for sharing ALL of the Truth with dad and I and now my domestic Church/family! So blessed!

God is in this story - Yes!!!

O God beyond all praising - the best!!!

Saturday, October 29, 2022

Fun with reflections today!/The BIG DAY is here - open house at the Parsonage!/"For to me life is Christ, and death is gain..." Phil 1

Tom here with grandma while the final push is happening at The Parsonage. Grandma having fun with reflections - Tom, cat, crucifix on grandma's bed with the full length mirror sideways.

Started when he arrived and shared the sink with grandma while she brushed her teeth with warm water for his toes. Such a happy smiley boy for me! I do feel old at times and over my head, but his love and smiles and crawling up to be held make it all worth it! Such a gift he is!

Oh Tom!

He is taking a nice nap now, so grandma can write here a bit and do my prayers. Thanks sweet boy!

Holding Mary with baby Jesus icon and my dad's crucifix.

Joined by our purry kitty

Time with grandpa farmer Pat as the sun set last evening. These two are very close and love to share time together. Mary and Jesus icon over their shoulder.

Red riding hood last night by Missoula Acting company. Rose and Luke were shadows

Luke was poison ivy...

Kindergartener Joy was an adorable racoon - singing about washing their hands before they eat.

Keeping the picnic basket from the woodsman.

A big smile when she sees grandma and Uncle Johnnie

Joy's first performance at HRS! So fun for the kids! John was in the first Missoula play in 2003! He was the lead in Treasure Island.

Sunset in Manistique, MI where we had a cabin for 15 years. LOVE the Big Lake Michigan!

It has been a BIG week for Mary at the National FFA gathering. 7th place in the country! Wow! Way to go Marshall!

Picture taken from the inside through the new picture window! Perfection!

I will put a flood of pictures from Ruth and Paul's Airbnb as it is coming to the time of their open house after 5p mass tonight... from 6p-9p!

Ruth with #7 - 11 month old Tom in front of the new picture window - a huge improvement

Out the door and there is The Church of our marriage and domestic Church/family for the last 44 years and longer for hubby Pat as it has been his Church since birth - 68 years!

The Parsonage - in its history - 100 years ago it was a Presbyterian Parsonage and then later a Lutheran one! Hence, The Parsonage.

Tom in the blue bedroom -" Little Sister Blue"

Here's what we mean - the color of the sky and the shape of The Cross.

Our 4th daughter, Susan/Little Sister Hallel, is in Kansas City,KS for the year! We always have fake plans to go there and spend some time. Up in the air, but we love to know that she is close!

Dad and Hallel

In Hallel's Community of the Lamb beginning the night before they Mendicate/chew on the Gospel for the next day. The Word of God is Jesus and they LOVE to deeply include the Gospel in their life of prayer. Today in the first reading from Philippians 1 St Paul says such powerful words to us. I love the reflection in The Magnificat today about these words - For to me life is Christ, and death is gain. Phil 1

The genius of "taking the lowest place" at table is that it provides a host the chance of giving his guest the greatest possible honor. That is what St Paul has in mind when he says, "For me life is Christ, and death is gain." Out of the Christlike lowliness I willingly embrace, "Christ will be magnified in my body."

I think that you can guess what is the Gospel - taking the lowest place at table!

"...Rather, when you are invited,
go and take the lowest place
so that when the host comes to you he may say,
‘My friend, move up to a higher position.’
Then you will enjoy the esteem of your companions at the table.
For everyone who exalts himself will be humbled,
but the one who humbles himself will be exalted.” Luke 14

Fresh paint and new lighting on the wonderful floors!

Yesterday waiting for the furniture that came by livestock trailer!

The safari room...

The pink rose room with soft rug for your toes in the morning.

Rug in the Little Sister room...

Ruth doing the work - painting the trim last minute.

Tom visits while the furniture is cleaned.

"I found you mom!"

You work so hard mom. I want to be just like you and dad someday.

Over the registration dresser as you enter there will be this specail sign made by the high school shop. "All we had to do was buy the piece of metal..."

The beginning of a great adventure for Ruth and Paul and family! Lord, we put this venture in your hands. Jesus, we trust in you. Amen and Hallelujah

So important to live by!

God is good all the time! All the time, God is GOOD!

Kind of crazy and always planning pictures - yes, I am obsessed with pictures. At least I use them, and drive others nuts...

Tom is just used to me - as I say - "I have him trained!"

Enough grandma! I want my nap now.

Cat is worn out too.

St Mother Teresa today - Die to self so that Jesus can live in us and we can be this hands, feet and voice in the world of sin and darkness - a LIGHT!

Dad today pointing the way! I love to learn at your feet dearest dad! You brought us into The Church 50 years ago and every day since has been a wonderful gift to me! Bless-bless, Barbara and the 54 - 34 here and 20 in heaven including both my parents, who after 70 years of marriage died in 2020 just 7 months apart!

Family Soul Story - Choose Life!: The amazing story of the 13 becoming Catholic!

Pope Benny today is so rich sharing The Truth we find in Jesus in The Word!

God is in the story - what I hope to share here each day!

Francesca Batistelli

Danielle Rose

This was taken on Easter Sunday in Colman, South Dakota about 12 years ago!

My dad had done the unthinkable - said yes to being a Deacon in Colman, South Dakota just 60 minutes from our door to their door of the rectory... they had promised to help out as parish administrator of a small town chuch and to help out in the other cluster churches. It was my parents first contact with living the farm life other than second hand through a visit here and there to our farm. Now they were immersed in farm life and loved it! I loved the fact that for 3 years I could jump in the car and go and hang out with them for an afternoon here and there! It was amazing! Soon their 3 years were at an end and we all gathered for a huge family celebration of Easter... we filled the social hall with our huge family... I am the oldest of 11 with over 30 grandkids! The wind of the Holy Spirit was howling as our family gathered in front of the church doors for a family photo... it made us smile to have the wind roaring at us with the fury that only the prairie can muster!

How I love the pictures of the kids in Big Shoes! Adorable!

What is it about the kids walking around the house in mom or dad's shoes? I think that it is a form of flattery... they like to see mom of dad in those shoes so it makes them feel like they are looking like their beloved parent of just acting big like them! I remember my 3rd daughter, Maria, was so in love with her daddy... she would crawl around the bedroom and drape his socks around her neck that she had picked up off the floor just as a token of her love for him. I have a group of pictures in the bathroom that are just of that theme... Wearing mom and dad's shoes. I think that it is about as cute as can be... and also a wonderful tribiute to a child's love and appreciation for their parnets. I have now seen my 3 grandchildren that live closeby and spent much time with us also put on mostly grandpa's shoes which are usually over by the door and walk around in them... I think that a lot of that reflects that love and appreciaion that they have for him and his loving sharing ways with them. Now a generation later I have watched now grandpa LOVE each one of those kids so specially by showering them with the time by taking them along outside or allowing them to sit in his lap and share his meal when he comes in late for a meal... The same scene that I saw with our 5 kids and the resulting love and appreciation and respect! Who knew wearing his shoes was a sign of love and devotion?!?

The absolutely amazing letter that Susan/Little Sister Hallel sent to Nancy about marriage...

Nancy was engaged to Bill Bandzuch on April 10, 2010... We are all so happy for her as she has waited long for her Catholic man to come into her life. She had stood by her values and as a result it was especially sweet and special when she joyfully accepted Bill's proposal! We all gathered in Maria and Joe's back yard to help them celebrate that afternoon minus her sister in KC... Little Sister Hallel. We called her and she spoke to each one of us and even her neice and nephews ! A month later Nancy found this letter from her sister in the mailbox. It was mother's day and she called me to read it to me over the phone. I was blown away and at first thought how crazy it was that a young girl,who had answered the call to remain chaste and be a little sister had so much insight into marriage! But when I realized that she is now the "bride of Christ" it now makes all the sense in the world! I would like to once again share this powerful and wise letter here... Nancy, Look I am writing you a letter... aren't you impressed? Well, you better be because both you and I know how often this happens. I am writing to tell you now extremely excited I am about your engagement to Bill. I have to admit, when I got the news I wasn't really shocked but that night as it sunk in during adoration and the next day during mass I was so happy. My heart overflowed with joy for you. How beautiful to know that you have found your... most cherished cross. While I have never had the experience of being married, from what I hear is that he will truly be your cross. But not your cross as human eyes look at it, as a thing to run away from, as a thing of torture but rather as that which is truly the tree of life. It is only when clinging to the cross that one can truly live, it is the source of all life and of all love. Your marriage to Bill will be this, not something to run away from when it gets hard and when it hurts, but something to hold tight to, especially when it hurts because it is in this that you will find life and love. Know that it is through your marriage that Jesus wants to show you his great love for you and also that the best example that you can give to the world of Christ's love is a marriage lived in truth. So, in other words, know that I am so happy for you and that I love you a whole lot. Know that you are in my prayers during this crazy time of wedding planning; that you may not go crazy but rather learn to love each other better and that you may both have great joy and great peace. Remember to pray for me too! God Bless, Your little Sister Hallel

Our daughters, Nancy and Little Sister Hallel/Susan, with John in Lourdes, France.

Little Sister Hallel had just taken the habit of the community of the Lamb and changed her name a few days before this taken in August of 2009... John, Nancy and I had gone to help her celebrate this huge step in her life! John had just been diagnosed with brain cancer and had just completed his second chemo and was better, so within 24 hours we decided that we would fly to France! We visited Lourdes and all bathed in the healing waters which miraculously flow from the spring where St Bernedett was told to dig in the mud! John said that the day was "very good" , and for him that is saying a lot! This past winter Pat and I were in a study group of a book written by Matthew Kelly called Rediscovering Catholicism... this paragraph on p48 is amazing and so wonderfully defends the choice of religious life but also the joys and beauty of this life! I quote: "In every age, there is a small number of men and women who are prepared to turn their backs on popular culture and personal gain to embrace heroically the life Jesus outlines in the Gospels. These people fashion Catholicism into a lifestyle, they listen attentively to the voice of God in their lives, and they passionately pursue their personal adventure of salvation. As a result, they capture the attention and fascinate the imaginations of everyone who crosses their path. Paradoxically, the modern world pities these people because it believes they are missing out on something. Never feel sorry for them. These men and women are the happiest people who ever lived. They are the saints. If the Church is to thrive in this modern era, it depends on men and women like these."

Sitting on the front porch of our home in Minneapolis - me and my friend Marge a few years after..

This was taken a few years after we met while attending welcome week at the U of M in 1970! I did not know at the time that Margie would be responsible for the rest of my life - my meeting and a year later marrying her brother, Pat... I have written many cards to her over the years telling her in every way possible that because of her I have my life. We will celebrate our 32 anniversary this summer, so she has been in my life more than not! Thank you Margie Rose/Raterra Rashana for being such a loyal and true friend... there is no doubt that you were put in my life by our loving forgiving Lord ! Your life growing up on the farm in Southwest Mn is now my life and our children's lives are blessed as a result! How I rejoice at the Lord's fingerprint on my life! Jesus I trust in You! Please bless my dear friend now and forever. Amen and Halleluia!

My sister Mary at the baptism of my daughter, Nancy Anna.. She is Godmother and my dad is baptizing

In 1982 my sister, Mary, came to help me while I was on bedrest with my second daughter... I had high blood pressure and was on bedrest, so Mary came to help me around the house with my 2 year old Ruth and help Pat milk the cows. She was a city girl like me, but fell in love with the farm and we loved having her with us! After Nancy was born on April 2 we asked Mary to be her Godmother. We realized after I was on my feet that she needed to move on, so tearfully she went up to live with my folks in TF. She eventually became a doctor's office nurse and on a blind date met her farmer, Gerry.... he was a dairy farmer in Wisconsin. They married and had a daughrer, Audrey.... When Audrey was 20 mo Mary died of Lymphoma... Gerry is now married to Cathy, who had 5 kids and her husband drowned in the river up there...

Snapping beans with the 5 klids as we are in Taylors Falls visiting my parents in the summer of 92

I was in the thick of bean harvest in my garden when I took my kids to spend some days in the summer with my parents... probably late July of 92... WE picked them and brought them along to snap at my parent's house. We have such wonderful memories of our days spent in Taylors Falls at their remodeled cape cod house up on Angel Hill. Now after 14 years of liiving on Lake Michigan in Manistique in the upper penninsula... my parents have bought a home on the St Croix River in St Croix Falls, Wi which is right across the river from Taylors... I am thrilled that now my parents will be close enough for me to go and see them for the day or for a few days much more often! I loved to go to the big lake, but so missed my parents being closer so that I could spend time with them! Thnak you Lord for this move and may they continue to be a wonderful presence in my life for years to come!

Pat's mom took this picture after milking the cows one morning shortly after we were married.

Typical old camera quality - this was after we were done milking the cows with the baby calves... with dairy calves...they are taken off of their mothers at birth so that you and I can drink the milk...they start out on a big bottle and then graduate to pails of milk. That was one of my jobs out there as well as giving each cow some protein to eat while Pat was moving down the line milking them. I also would help undo the headgate when he was done so that they could go out of the barn. Pat of the time I would sit on an upside down pail and watch him milk the cows and sometimes we would visit. I married a farmer and I found these times special to the point that when Ruth was born - I would bring her over and put her strapped in her infant seat close to the heater in the milk house... she was born Jan 4, 1980... Soon my in laws told me to bring her in the house and put her in the bed with them while I helped Pat... Ruthie got to know her grandparents really well and has early memories of waking up and seeing a certain light fixture over their bed and the warm feelings that go with snuggling with her loving grandparents morning after morning! They even took a movie of her first steps dressed in different outfits day after day that we have never seen! Got to do that someday! The early years were special for many!

Pat comes to visit me in the Cities as things slow down a bit on the farm - cross country skiing...

This picture was taken by my younger sister, Mary... she is now gone for 24 years due to cancer at the age of 28! Pat had come to visit me and we decided for him to wear one of my brother's boots and try cross country skiing for the first time! The boots were too small, but when Pat Verly is motivated to do something... nothing will prevent him! Boy, have I learned that to be a huge part of him after almost 32 years of marriage! He also likes to be rough and tumble and caused this fall to get some bodily contact and to tussle with me! Thank goodness for soft snow to fall in! The dating years were long distance and due to the demands of the farm - we dated maybe once every few weeks when he could certainly not every night or even once a week... at the busy times of the year it was even less, but Pat was very good about calling me on the phone and having long conversations about our lives... he gave me many lessons on the farm life in the middle of the nigh... when he would wake me up after he got in from work! I knew that when that phone would ring that it was my farmer! The thing about farming... similar to the Catholic Church... you never learn it all...there is always more to learn and my Patrick is very intelligent and very interested in it all!

I like to call this picture taken at our first Christmas....married 4 months....THE LOOK OF LOVE!

Her name Hallel means Joy- Halleluia.... she reflects that inner joy when she is singing...

Little Sister Hallel has shared that when others say her name they are praising God with the highest of praise and Joy! There are many Hallel psalms including the last 5 psalms - 145 thru 150 and the grand Hallels are in the center of the psalms. the word means tall in French also and Hallel being much taller than most...this is humorous to the community! As a mother I am happy for her choice to be with the community of the lamb to see her happiness and joy... her face lights up in a way that cannot be anything but genuine happiness!

Finally I leave the nest!

I loved being with my family so much that finally after I had become an nurse - 4 years of college and lived at home... got a job at Hennipen County Medical center on the Neurolgoy station... and just went along day to day at home with my family including 10 yonger siblings... One day my mom asked me if I had ever thought of getting my own place... Oh, I tought... that is maybe something I should think about. I then rented a third floor of a house just a block from my parents' home. It was great! Close to my beloved family...yet my own place!

John with Bertha at the State Fair a few years back

Bertha took reserve champion with her calf in the cow-calf division a couple times for John at the State Fair... You can always count on Bertha! 4 H was a wonderful thing for our kids... It was the one time that they learned about livestock on a day to day basis with their dad. They also learned a lot of life skills including how to present themselves in front of people... this has developed into John's future wishes for a life profession... Ag and presenting himself to large groups of people however that all comes together... Lord hear our prayer for a long and bright future for John with you always number one in his life!

Two 5 month losses - both boys born after John - buried at the cemetary

William and John would have been very close in age - about 14 months... I went in for my 5 month check up and the heartbeat couldn't be found... an ultrasound revealed that he had died... I had some scary miscahrriages, so the thought of carrying him til I "lost" him was terrifying to me. I went through a 5 month abortion procedure to deliver my son. I had a postagladin suppository inserted and went through a horrible experience with pain and chills to deliver our tiny son,William. I held him wrapped in a blanket, and Pat and I shed tears at what could have been. It was winter and the ground was frozen...we took him home in a small box and put it in the freezer.. So hard to open it and face him and have the memories and tears come flooding me again. About two years later the same thing unexplainably happened... We lost Robert the same time and way... "It looks like his cord is fatally kinked." It was earth shattering to face another loss of a son and brother for John here on this earth... WE know that we have these children to be united with someday! These and the other 4 lost along the jounrney of our "nest". I feel that they were both the best and the worst years of my life! How I prayed that the Lord would give me one more child after John so that the world would see visible truth that "no, we were't just trying for our boy and that is why we ended up with 5 children! We were open to family!" Yet I am flooded with peace and even joy to know that all our children are with us whether here on earth and in heaven! I have named each of my children in heaven... Christopher lost between Ruth and Nancy, Thomas lost when my sister Mary died of Lymphoma in 1986, Joseph lost before John, William and Robert lost at 5 mo after John, and Mary lost at 3 1/2 mo in 1994. The prayer for them of their mother is a powerful experience for me as I remember them daily and many times feel that they are up there keeping me on the straight and narrow as much as possible. All I know is that I must need a lot of help to have that small spiritual army in heaven....

John and his 4 sisters.... When asked the family he wants someday... "I want 4 girls and a boy!'

Our 9 precious grandchildren, with another one on the way

I got a call today from daughter number 3 that I needed to update my grandchildren picture - the number had doubled since... So here are the 9 together with Hallel when she visited in April. Ruth has 4 with another on the way - Simon age 8, Mary age 7, David soon to be 5, and Rose 13 months. Nancy has Augustine 2, and Bernadette 7 months. Maria has 3 children... Therese 5, David 3, and Patrick 8 months! So this is almost a complete picture except for Maria's two losses due to miscarriage, who are in heaven. We love all life we have been blessed with here and in heaven, and pray for each daily. Guardian Angels watch out for them. Jesus, we Trust in YOU.

An interesting fact about the cows and calves in the pastures... Cow trails...

These two pairs are demostrating how they all walk in the same path or trail...If you look on the other side of the hill above them you can see a cow trail that they use on that side of the pasture. When you go out and walk in the pasture... you will see these paths that are very much used to the point that they are deep and there is no grass growing in them just like a well used people trail gets to be. On a very steep hill there can be teraces of many cow trails along the side where they will go single file like these two moms with their calves following along behind... I did see some of the calves get tired of the slow pace and run ahead, but it is obvious, when you see the trails,that the cows use them for the most part to get from one place in the pasture to another. How my husband loves to see them out there in the lush grass getting fat off of the grass that grows where no crops can due to the up and down land or the creeks that run through them and are also important for the cows and calves to get the water they need just like every living creature! My husband's idea of a romantic evening is to go out on the 4 wheeler or the pickup to look at the cows and calves in the 6 different pastures that we have! The kids have fond memories of going out to look at the cows in the back of the pickup - great vacation/family time!

It doesn't get much cuter than this - Ruth Ida Rose with a forever remembered baby kitty...

The Net team stops by as they come to the end of their year of serving Catholic Youth!

Our nephew, Sam Cross, has taken a year out of his life to work on the National Evagelical Team - they are Catholic Youth in their late teens and early 20s that travel the country in a van giving retreats to youth everywhere! Their homebase in St Paul, but they have traveled from coast to coast this last year and they themselves are from many places in the country and even a girl from Netherlands! In the picture Sam is standing all the way to the left by John. He lived with us a summer and learned about the farm and was in 4 H and FFA here. He showed cattle and pigs at the county fair and then went up to the State Fair with his projects and then worked in the Miracle of Birth barn for a couple of summers. Sam is a special nephew! He also has done many TEC retreats after he said yes to our request that he make a retreat and absolutely fell in love with TEC! Now he has taken it a step further in serving on this traveling retreat team with his guitar and wonderful joyful spirit... touching many youth along with the 10 youth that are on the team with him. Just before this picture was taken... Sam had given them rides back and forth on the loader to "see" the cows and farm scenes... Sitting to the far right of the tractor in the loader bucket is a girl from Minnesota named, Sarah. We struck up a conversation in the kitchen while I was cleaning up after the meal that we had shared... She started the conversation by asking me if I had always lived in Mn... I thought that I would wow her by starting off by saying; "No, actually I was born in Boston, Mass!" Her reply; "So was I!" That was a start of the most amazing give and take between us! We share so much in common and mostly I thought that she was probably me about 40 years ago when I was a new Catholic and so in love with EVERYTHING about the Catholic Church! She shared that her family of 4 girls and one boy and both of her parents converted from Episcopal to Catholic and why would you belong anywhere but the True Church!? ! Wow! I was blown away to meet someone on this long journey I have been on that is at the same place I was at that age! All of these youth are so amazing and I hope and pray and am really confident that they have touched deeply and positively many youth on their trek across the country! I asked the girl from Netherlands about the Catholic Church in her country... I have heard that it barely exists any more and she agreed that only the old attend church and otherwise those that are Catholic like her go with their families at EAster and Christmas... her friend told her that she would do the NET as she had done ahead of her and now a young person is returning to this country without God... filled with love and knowledge of her Church - Jesus and His Mother - It was a wonderful hour and a half and gave me so much hope for the Church and how the grassroots are strong and spreading our faith far and wide! Thank you Lord for all the work that is taking place in your church and please continue to use me and all those that are listening to and answering your call! Amen and Halleluia!

John the actor and his love of the stage and being in front of people - It was a fun ride!

This was John doing the "She thinks my tractor is attractive" skit for Arts In at the county fair in 4H a few years back... It is just so fun to see him in his element and it always amazed us to see how relaxed he was up there. Not like any of the rest of us! Now he hopes to take that love of the stage and put it along with his Ag background into some type of a job for his future... It will certainly be interesting to follow along and now with a year overcoming brain cancer and all that has meant for him... it has certainly taken him to a deeper and more compassionate place... We all await what the future will bring... Thank you John for all the FUN we have had following you as you share the joy with us on stage! It has been a fun ride! Jesus we know that you are in control of John's life and have a wonderful plan just for him! Jesus we trust in You!

Oh happy day! Another fun time with John...

First with a talent show at the Catholic School doing...Oh happy day from Sister Act and then again for 4 H share the fun... Finally with chior robes that we found at the Thrift store and with his sister, Maria, and cousins, Sam and Phil Cross... we enjoy the fun at Christmas camp. John even put it on for Easter when we went to visit Maria in the monastery. We shared a meal through the enclosure and John did the entertainment for all of us by putting on a chior robe and lip sincing.... Oh happy day for all of us... it was great entertainment that was good over and over!

He who follows me will not walk in darkness but will have the light of life. Jn 8:12

I came across this inside of a long letter that our daughter, Maria, had written daily to share her experience with us as she went from a Poor Clare Monastery in Sauk Rapids, Mn to one close to Washington DC... It was so hard to think that she could go so far away to a cloistered monastery... where we would have to go and see her there and never get a hug as she would be in the "enclosure". It was to the point of her entering and the mother superior asked her to write a letter saying that this was the right thing for her to do... she couldn't write it and was back home! We were shocked and amazed! After saying goodbye to her life... she returned and embraced it! I will never forget her out helping put the cows and calves out to pasture and saying how wonderful it was to be out there... Now that was a miracle! So often on this journey we have been weak, depressed, scared and lost... The image of Jesus picking up the weak lost lamb is so often coming to me... This is wonderful to be able to share here with all of you that are upholding us in prayer!

A miracle! We make it to France in the midst of John's brain cancer and after a brain biopsy!

One of my favorite pictures from France...Susan helping John walk through the rain down a path at Saint-Pierre. They have always had a close relationship... Susan was 3 1/2 years older than John... I lost two pregnancies between them and it was never kept from the kids... we all grieved together at the losses. Susan was thrilled with her little brother from day one. She was constantly caring for him and watching out for him. We have a family story that Susan saved John's life... I will save that for a later date to share. John discovered in France that he could walk at a normal speed leaving his walker behind and having someone under his weak side. I think that he enjoyed the closeness also. We were in France and it was totally due to prayer!

The way of the cross - Cancer strikes our 20 year old son!

John at Lourdes with his two sisters... LS Hallel in the habit she had just received as a new member of the community of the Lamb and Nancy. From the back as they support their brother it looks like he is on the cross. After the news about two months earlier that he had brain cancer and then the ataxia on his left side as a result of the biopsy they had to do to diagnose it... It certainly a cross like no other we could have ever imagined! Beyond our wildest nightmares! Just the day before we left for France he was able to get to the bathroom by himself for the first time! We could go to France to see his sister join the community, and go to Lourdes and bath in the miraculous and healing waters under the watchful care of our most Blessed Virgin Mother of God... Mary Most Holy! John truly turned from a heavy heart to one of hope at this point in the journey.

Little Sister Hallel here for Thanksgiving and spent a week with John.

A group shot over at Ruth and Paul's place... Little Sister Hallel - Susan here for a week. Took John back and forth to radiation, and we then had a family Thanksgiving up in the Cities with her other two sisters that live in ST Paul... Getting ready to head back to Kansas City. That is where she is living for the next year in the only community here in the US... Community of the Lamb... pictured are from left to right... Paul Lanoue, Ruth Lanoue, Little Sister Hallel, her dad Pat and John Verly. In front Mary with her kitty Purrrrrrs.