"Because my will is simple as a window
And knows no pride of original birth,
It is my life to die, like glass, by light:
Slain in the strong rays of the bridegroom sun."
This is the beginning of a poem by Thomas Merton called The Blessed Virgin Mary as compared to a window... something I read as a new Catholic the summer I lived at our "farm" in Wisconsin and did my student nursing at the hospital in St Croix Falls, WI. Thomas Merton and his writing was huge in my early romantic years of falling head over heels in LOVE with the Catholic Church! I was telling my mom the other day that for some reason this has not changed for me or lessened. To really be honest, it seems that it has grown more and more... especially after coming off an amazing Catholic retreat Together Encountering Christ in our beautiful Cathedral in New Ulm! I am filled with such JOY and excitement to go and tell all around me that Jesus loves us unconditionally and forgives us all that has come between HIM and us! This day is so powerful for this message as it is the day we celebrate the conversion of St Paul in the Church! "Paul clothed himself in the human Christ- that is, in the sufferings and humiliations of Christ crucified, and wanted no other joy." St Catherine of Siena In other words, Paul embraced the Cross of Christ and found LIFE eternal!

St John the Evangelist Church in Rochester was our Home of strength and healing for our weeks we spent there. This being the anniversary of our stem cell transplant... it is especially close to our hearts and minds. Spending this last weekend with John - on retreat together- was a true way of celebrating the anniversary of our final 5 week battle in Rochester together called cancer/stem cell transplant/healing/faith journey beginning! John has since regained his strength and become the new John, he finished his college education at the U of M, after taking a year off for the battle of his LIFE. Then, with his college degree, he took a full time job as a insurance salesman for Northwest Mutual here in Marshall. While spending time with his brother through marriage, Paul, and a conversation with him this past summer... John spoke to me while driving in a car by Lake Michigan - "Mom, I am going to do something that will make you happy. I am going into the seminary to discern the priesthood!" I was amazed at how the journey continues in this most prayed for and miraculous way! But we all thought that it would be over a year for it to come to pass, as the new semester would begin in just 6 weeks! No, the doors flew open and my usual unmotivated son flew through all the paper work and tests that he needed to complete including two papers about what he thought of the priesthood and being called to celibacy. The Holy Spirit was in charge and it seemed that He wanted to have John on the path sooner than later! I will once again share John's special version of it all! I have enjoyed reading it over and over, but then I am his mother after all!
Through the followers of Christ - John was lowered into the presence of Jesus by his friends and he was healed! It continues to this day - from the Gospel for today in Mark 16..."they will lay hands on the sick, and they will recover." John was annointed 3 times in his journey!!!
Jesus, we are so filled with wonder and awe at the beautiful gift to your Church we celebrate this day - the Conversion of St Paul! His words and actions are so powerful... in showing us that when we are touched by YOU, and shown the LIGHT - there is no turning back! We long to serve YOU in all that we do and say in this life and forward. John and his family felt your hand upon us, healing us and showing us that we are chosen by YOU to share the Way, the Truth, and the LIFE! May we, like Paul, "grow all the stronger... proving that this is the Christ!" Acts 9:1-22 - the first reading at mass today! Lord, may we have even some of the words of St Paul in sharing Your Truth, and may our actions show the world that we are Yours, O Lord! Jesus, we are so filled with unconditional LOVE and forgiveness as we embrace the Most Cherished Cross. Jesus, we trust in you. Amen and Halleluia
Bless-bless, Barb
Our Most Cherished Cross!!!
"Because my love is simple as a window
And knows no shame of original dust,
I longed all night, (when I was visible) for dawn my death:
When I would marry day, my Holy Spirit:
And die by transsubstantiation into light.
For light, my lover, steals my life in secret.
I vanish into day, and leave no shadow
But the geometry of my cross,
Whose frame and structure are the strength
By which I die, but only to the earth,
And am uplifted to the sky my life. "
Thomas Merton
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=W4uauw38GBM The song from our weekend brings me back... Sound of your Voice by Third Day