Litany of Humility
"O, Jesus! meek and humble of heart, Hear me.
From the desire of being esteemed,
Deliver me, Jesus.
From the desire of being loved...
From the desire of being extolled ...
From the desire of being honored ...
From the desire of being praised ...
From the desire of being preferred to others...
From the desire of being consulted ...
From the desire of being approved ...
From the fear of being humiliated ...
From the fear of being despised...
From the fear of suffering rebukes ...
From the fear of being calumniated ...
From the fear of being forgotten ...
From the fear of being ridiculed ...
From the fear of being wronged ...
From the fear of being suspected ...
That others may be loved more than I,
Jesus, grant me the grace to desire it.
That others may be esteemed more than I ...
That, in the opinion of the world,
others may increase and I may decrease ...
That others may be chosen and I set aside ...
That others may be praised and I unnoticed ...
That others may be preferred to me in everything...
That others may become holier than I, provided that I may become as holy as I should…"
Sharing this yesterday with a group of friends - one of them said that she could see praying this, but just was thrown by praying - "From the desire of being loved - Deliver me,Jesus." "Aren't we supposed to desire to be loved, and isn't it true that unless we are loved we cannot in turn love and serve?" I didn't have an answer to this, but now am giving it some thought and prayer. The motto that the Community of the Lamb lives by kept circulating in my mind and heart - "Wounded, I will not cease to LOVE." And also look at the humility litany/prayer... as a word picture of Christ's suffering and death for us. Looking at Christ - He was LOVE, and therefore with all the hatred leveled against Him by all, as well as carrying all of our hateful sins upon His shoulders on the Cross - He continued to LOVE, and did not allow the desire of being LOVED to intrude on the divine plan of our Salvation. This is easy to spot in our domestic Church/family... where we allow our most personal self to emerge, and as a result we usually treat those closest to us the worst! If we are wounded by another, and are not loved the way that we feel we deserve - do we continue to LOVE? Or do we kneejerk and in turn try to put them down and hurt them? All I can say is that our marriage and families would be so much better and happier and loving, if we were able to return hurt and barbs of the arrows with LOVE, and humble ourselves in this way!

Rosie will certainly learn to love cows and calves with the help of her big sister, Mary! It was always interesting to see the difference in our 4 girls - some of them loved the farm and being outside and showing cows and calves at the fair, and some just didn't. Now we see that in the two grandsons that live just 3 miles away - Simon loves the equipment and cares nothing for the cows, while David loves both!
Another way to look at the idea of not desiring to be loved - is the idea that we gain true LOVE and LIFE from our embracing the Cross in our lives. Once again when we look at the example we have from Jesus, and in our own experience, it is truly through the Cross that we have received eternal LIFE, and we see the True picture of LOVE. Christ the Lamb, slain for us, spotless and weak and HUMBLE to the point of denying Himself for the good of ALL! The Gospel for today is Christ speaking to us about how we are to approach our lives with HIM - "The greatest among you must be your servant. Whoever exalts himself will be humbled; but whoever humbles himself will be exalted." As I am writing this I have a vision of Blessed Teresa of Calcutta, and her order, who work in the gutters with the poorest of the poor, those that are cast aside and are dying alone and unloved. These sisters provide the LOVE of Christ for them - as they are the true picture of humility - having nothing! They consider the poor - "Christ in our arms!" I know that the Missionaries of Charity - Blessed Teresa's order - pray the Litany of Humility weekly, and ask for humility to take place within them. Wow!

Little Rose meeting her first calf - little Crystal.
Jesus, may we take a step today in dying to self, so that YOU may live within us, and in turn may transform our domestic Church/family! How we need YOU to show us how to humbly embrace our Most Cherished Cross and find LIFE and LOVE! "Patience, gentleness, humility, silence, kindness. To hide all that I can of my physical sufferings, and all my moral suffering, my spiritual deprivations. To cover everything with serenity and smiles: all my discomfort, sadness, and renunciations. To try to reconcile the tastes, desires, and needs of each and to take no account of myself, not to think of what I might wish; to sacrifice even my greatest hopes, when, misunderstood, they might irritate or displease another. I shall have all eternity in which to contemplate him whom I adore, to unite myself to him, and to pray...There is plenty of material for renunciation and profound and constant self-denial inthis unending abandonment of all that is my deepest longing." Elizabeth Leseur (1914) Lord, may I be more loving, and not expect to be loved or desire LOVE. I am weak, and that it when I turn to YOU. Jesus, you carry me in your LOVING and FORGIVING arms, and I am YOURS! I know that I always and without deserving it - have Your LOVE for me, so armed with that I am able to face all that comes my way. Jesus, I need you and trust in YOU. Amen and Halleluia

Bless-bless, Barb
If we accept that a mother can kill even her own child, how can we tell other people to not kill each other? Any country that accepts abortion is not teaching its people to love, but to use any violence to get what they want."
Blessed Teresa of Calcutta
Lord, we place calving in your hands, and trust!!
Snowball and her sweet new heifer, Snowcrystal!!