Monday, January 3, 2011

"The Most Holy Name of Jesus"

Our extended family arose for a shared breakfast and prayers and tears and hugs... as our son in law, Joseph returns to the Army today...  We discovered that it is the feast day in our amazing Church - the Most Holy Name of Jesus!  How we cling to that to find comfort and strength!
Therese lovingly hugged her daddy and it brought tears to all of our eyes..."If you think the name of 'Jesus' continually, it purges your sin and kindles your heart; it clarifies your soul, it removes anger and does away with slowness.  It wounds in love and fulfills charity.  It chases the devil and puts out dread.  It opens heaven, and makes you a contemplative.  It puts all vices and phantoms out of the lover."  Richard Rolle....Jesus, Jesus, Jesus, Jesus... we need you to help us through this hard place and understand the need to seperate a young family..
One last hug and love that will last for the months that they will be seperated!  "Daddy, I love you... Keep yourself safe and happy." 
Just as they head out... the two little ones will spend the day happily with their cousins a few miles down the road, while Maria and Joseph have 3 hours of travel to share and say their goodbyes... Sometimes life is hard to figure out... it is very hard for us to understand as we have been planted here, and my husband has never even left for work everyday... his work is here!  So different, yet we do see that serving our country is necessary for the freedom that we are blessed with and take for granted.  Jesus, Jesus, Jesus, Jesus...
Feeling the need to send him off with some shared prayers... Joseph sat on a chair and we all put our hands on him... little Therese held his hand.  Each prayed over him and then we sang the blessing song that we have used at TEC all of these years..."May the Blessing of the Lord be upon you.  We bless you in the name of the Lord..."  How appropriate today - in your name - JESUS!   More tears to wipe... Joseph is assured that with me this is to be expected on a regular basis... "This is just normal around here with mom!"
They had many wonderful months together this past summer/fall... relaxed and loving and bonding... now they have all the strength that they need to see it through all this time apart.  We are here for Maria and the kids... Pat just called over to Ruth and Paul's and the 5 kids are running around sceaming and happy like a bunch of "Indians."
How's that for a silly and fun bunch?  These happy times will carry them through.  In the name of Jesus, we know that you look to Him and He is with you always! 
The Lord Jesus promised,"Whatever you ask in my name,I will do" - John 14:13.  For "the name 'Jesus" contains all... His name is the only one that contains the presence it signifies"- CCC 2666.  "You have had yourselves washed, you were sanctified, you were justified in the name of the Lord Jesus Christ" -I Cor 6:11.  For there is no "other name under heaven given to the human race by which we are to be saved" - Acts 4:2.
"God of all the living, you sent your only-begotten Son to enlighten the world with the warmth of your love.  Enkindle in our winter-bound hearts the fire of charity, that we may burn always with zeal for you, though Christ our Lord.  Amen"  - Closing prayer for morning prayer - see http://www.magnificat.com/   The "winter-bound hearts" really spoke to me after this already long and difficult winter.. struggling to slowly get to the nursing home for the last 3 days... and the experience of being snowed in there for 28 hours 3 weeks ago.. thankfully Maria and Joe have good roads today!  You can never be too sure this time of year! 
From the first reading for mass today, that is being said in every corner of the world.... from the tiny church in the middle of Africa to ST Peters in Rome - "His commandment is this: we should believe in the name of his Son, Jesus Christ, and love one another just as he commanded us...This is how you can know the Spirit of God: every spirit that acknowledges Jesus Christ come in the flesh belongs to God....We belong to God and anyone who knows God listens..."  I John 3:22-4:6
"In the name of Jesus every knee must bend, in heaven, on earth, and under the earth; every tongue should proclaim to the glory of God the Father:  Jesus Christ is Lord."  Phil 2: 10-11  He gives us the Hope, Strength, Faith, Trust that we need to get over the bumps in the journey of life!  WE know that without a doubt!
Put yourself in this scene and take heart... all those that are facing difficulties!..."Jesus went around all of Gallilee, teaching in their synagogues, proclaiming the Gospel of the Kingdom, and curing every disease and illness among the people.  His fame spread to all of Syria, and they brought to him all who were sick with various diseases and racked with pain, those who were possessed, lunatics, and paralytics and he cured them.  And great crowds... followed him."  Matt 4: 12-17, 23-25 - The Gospel for today!  We are so filled with great confidence that our God come as man - Jesus is answering all of our needs!

Therese and David know that Jesus is with them, and they have always known that as even in their mother's womb they have attended daily mass... It has been good for us to "see" Maria's devotion to our Lord's presence in the Eucharist and the way that we are fed and given strength through that amazing Gift of Himself to us!  These amazing words from Allen Hunt in his book, that I am in the midst of reading, Confessions of a Mega-Church Pastor...  "Holiness is palpable and prevalent in the Catholic Church because God comes to us in the Eucharist and the altar with the great gift of Himself, His body and blood.  Through that offering on the altar God then infuses us with His Holiness and with His grace in the body and blood of Christ."
"Over time, day in and day out, prayer, devotion and the Mass have an overwhelming effect in our lives.  They produce holiness."  Allen Hunt... I can see the effect that all this exposure to Jesus has had on Maria and her children... as they face this hard time of seperation from her husband and their father.  WE the extended family also need the strength that these blessings of The Church provides for us!
So with tears in our eyes and a warm hug and a bless-bless on the forehead... we send Joseph off to the path that the Lord has opened before him! 
Jesus, Jesus, Jesus, Jesus... your name reminds us in all of our being of your miraculous works in this world starting with your becoming man and dwelling among us - showing your love for us in healing all of our pain and ills and also teaching us the Truth!  We come to you within our deepest soul and spirit and ask for your Holy Spirit to dwell within us... give us all we need to follow you and to serve those around us - especially those in our families.  Jesus, we trust in you!  Amen and Halleluia!
Talk about "wild Indians!"  Bless-bless, Barb








"Your name, O God, is oil poured out.  Your name is Jesus, that is Savior.  As long as my soul is sick through sin, oppressed  with the heavy burden of the body, anxious and distrubed by tne dangers and miseries of life, so long, O Lord, your name is for me oil... But when my soul is suddenly illumined with the light of grace, cleansed from all the defilement of sin, and feels itself filled with consolation, with spiritual strength and unspeakable joy, then I can say to you with delighted praise and in joy of spirit,'Your name, O Lord, is for me oil poured out.  For the grace of our visitation makes me fully understand the true meaning of your name, which is Jesus, Savior.  For it is your gracious presence that saves me from sorrrow and from sin."  Fr Walter Hilton (1396)

Sunday, January 2, 2011

Silhouettes lit by the LIGHT....

I am not sure where this is going tonight... I went to my scanned pictures and was drawn to those that were silhouettes of people and animals in front of the setting sun...I have officially begun to read for myself the book - Confessions of a Mega Church Pastor by Allen Hunt!  With every chapter and thought and word... I am moved, and touched, and feel the same feelings come over me... as I relate my experiences to his as a convert and one who saw the Church as one from the outside looking in...
I am filled with much joy and thanksgiving... the depth of the beauty that both Allen and I have discovered makes us virtually writing the same message - It is the True Church, and it is absolutely out of this world! 
I always studied and loved to capture the stroke work of light... the painting of the world around us... making the world facinating and forever changeable... firelight on faces was one photo study I did one summer evening...  WE are each one a work of Art, and we are molded as a lump of clay into a vessel of use and value to those that we serve in this world.
The silhouettes of young children in France at the "vesture" of little Sister Hallel/Susan and the other 10 girls, who with her changed their names and took the habit of the Community of the Lamb!  WE are to share the meal of Christ... come to touch us with the Truth and Life and Love in the Eucharist - His Body and Blood given for all!
A fair winning picture taken one summer night as Pat is cutting a hole with a torch in a large barrel... Our family had just come back from a family time in the pasture as the sun set... looking at the cows and calves grazing on the summer grass.  Family time on the farm is the time we can take to do those moments of enjoying of the gift of nature that we have been blessed with, to care for the animals of the earth, and the vegetation of the earth, and to feed the world and all that is in it!
Tomorrow our son in law, Joseph, returns to the Army... we thank God for the two weeks that he has had at home with his little family!  And we pray for his safety, and the  well being of his family while he is away!  Jesus, we trust in you!

My sister,Mary's grave... the year she died we went to visit her grave while at our Christmas camp... both of my daughters, Nancy and Susan, were her Goddaughters... They ask me why they have a Godmother in heaven... "She is praying for you from there and that is very special... You girls have a special calling to pray, as you have a deep spiritual connection to heaven, where you need to pray for her to arrive there with her Savior, Jesus Christ.  You are called to pray for her... she is counting on that!"
Susan's silhouette as we are having that "family time" out in the back pasture with the cows and calves at sunset... Lord, on this feast day of the kings coming to you by night with only the light of a huge star overhead... how amazing must that light have been to reveal to them in their hearts and souls that you were God come to earth!  Your LIGHT and LOVE came to dwell in this world and to lead us to the Truth!  WE fall on our knees in gratitude and lift up our families-especially Joe and Maria's little family as they need to seperate again- fill us with all we need to follow where you lead!  Jesus, we trust in you!  Amen and Halleluia! 
Bless-bless, Barb
"The holiness of these sisters stunned me.... Never before had I encountered persons so completely given over to God.  Their faces shone with a grace and light that unnerved me.  The love of God revealed itself  physically in their eyes, cheeks, and smiles.  There were women whose entire lives were dedicated to the glory of God.... No such group exists in any Protestant tradition.  Very simply, I was bumfuddled."  Allen Hunt


The truth is TRUE! Epiphany Sunday!

In my sleep overnight... there was a dream of sorts where there was a small child, who had an "epiphany" with a pearl of great value!..  In the midst of a lesson from someone older and wiser.. the small one suddenly  had the realization that there was no middle road or deviation from the fact that... "The Truth is in fact TRUE!"  I know that I woke up at that moment and was filled with my own epiphany and marveled at the wonder and simplicity of this moment for this child and for myself!  My Catholic journey has been one huge and many small epiphanies for me!
I googled "an epiphany"...
"An epiphany can be described as a moment of self-realization or discovery that enlightens or reveals the person’s character. Epiphany is rooted in the Greek word epiphania which translates to manifestation. As used in modern fiction, philosophy and psychology, an epiphany is the manifestation of self-truths."  Huge for me was the pope for my entire marriage until he died in April of 2005... How he has molded me and given me great joy in discovering the truth is without a doubt TRUE!  And there is no doubt that the Truth will set you free to soar to new and amazing heights!


My dear Mother and your Son, eating your chin out of deep love and devotion to You - the Gateway to our Salvation! What Joy fills me as I spend time throughout the day being led to Him through your intercession - helping me one Mother to another! 
Each of the amazing children I have been blessed with to be their mother whether here on earth or in heaven... their love and Truth has taken me so deep into YOU and your CROSS!  I suffer - I die - I LIVE!
I am fed with your Heavenly Banquet of LIFE! I am filled with You and Your Truth!  Jesus, I trust in you!  Amen and Halleluia!

Bless-bless, Barb
"Before you they shall fall prostrate, saying in prayer: 'With you only is God, and nowhere else.'"  Isaiah 45:14

M

Saturday, January 1, 2011

A New Year's day wedding... 1-1-11

Therese just talked about the other Maria that got married today... a good family friend brought all those brave enough to travel the roads... together in a small amazing jewel of a Catholic Church just about half an hour from Marshall - Wilno, Mn and St John Catius Catholic Church...
The rain before the snow made the icey branches glisten as we drove past trees in the groves... then had to put on sunglasses as the white was blinding in the sun!

Pat and I share a lively conversation about a powerful book that Pat has been reading called Confessions of a Mega Church Pastor... I am very excited to read it after all that Pat has read to me and shared about it... Pat has been touched deeply by it, and is tearful as the emotions overwhelm him... It is wonderful when seekers discover the Truth of our amazing Church!
White landscape with round bales to add interest...
Closer as we crawl along the winding icey- snowy road to our jewel in a town with "a large beautiful church and 3 houses."  It truly feels like you are driving into a farmyard and not the parking lot of a Catholic Church... We all feel like we have taken a wild crazy winter adventure as we leave the warmth of our cars and in our finery enter the church!
After our conversation of the Truth that does not change,which the universal Church represents...All  the wonderful windows, statues, and decorations for Christmas...all remind us of our clear and unchanging truth that our Church upholds for us to have happiness in our lives! 

This being the feast of Mary ... this amazing stain glass window of the kings bowing before the queen of heaven and earth is such a gift today!  Maria had first of all wanted her wedding to be for Mary's solemnity as the Mother of God... but her newly ordained cousin, Matt, did the Sunday mass of obligation for us - the Epiphany! 

The nativity was so beautiful as was the beautiful statue of Mary with Jesus looking on from behind... Fr Matt Wiering spoke of the scene profoundly as he gave his homily about the "poverty" of the Holy Family - yet in their embracing their smallness they were richly blessed with LOVE! 

We were deeply touched by the representatives of Christ here on this earth... two young priests that have listened to His call and answered with a wonderful powerful YES!  Our Church is alive and well when we see these young amazing priests!  Thank you Lord, for the promise and HOPE!
A wonderful procession led us into a wonderful celebration of two becoming one in LOVE!
A beautiful and glowing bride on the arm of her father... we were rejoicing with and for them! 
Sitting beside Pat and hearing the reminder of the vows and the sharing of the supreme Gift of His Body and Blood... It was a very good way to start the New Year!  Thank You Maria and Eric for sharing with us in this wonderful way no matter what the Minnesota weather tried to throw at us!  Jesus, we trust in you!  Amen and Halleluia! 
Bless-bless, Barb
"The grace of heaven enters in
The closed-up Mother's inmost parts.
The maiden's womb bears
A mystery unknown to her

The dwelling of a modest heart
Suddenly becomes God's temple;
Untouched, not knowing man,
She spoke a word and made a Som.

In childbirth she gave birth to him
Whom Gabriel had foretold,
Whom John had recognized,
While still his Mother's womb enclosed him.

He endured lying in the manger,
He did not spurn the crib.
He fed upon a little milk;
Through him not even birds lack food."
Caelius Sedulius - a Christian poet who lived in Italy in the 5th century

May 2011 be a year of listening to His call, and following...

Following Him into the amazing exciting world of FAITH.
And Sacrifice called LOVE,
And be called back to our innocence of true forgiveness and go forth into TRUTH and HOPE and TRUST!  Jesus, we love you and trust in you!  Bring us to the fullness of life and love.  Amen and Halleluia!
Bless-bless, Barb
"Most blessed are you among women and blessed is the fruit of your womb"  Luke 1:42 On this feast of the solemnity of Mary!