Saturday, March 28, 2020

The trusting Lamb led to the slaughter/Jesus so close/"this is the Christ!" John 7


Love this of my dad yesterday at my sister, Paula's wonderful home!  Dad had gotten out with the help of my sister and husband to Vets for a blood draw and ultrasound of his kidney.  Then treated like the king that he is with Culver's fish on Friday!

Our family gushed about how handsome, healthy and happy he looks.  A sight for sore eyes as I dropped him at the door of his Assisted living a week ago today after we had shared mom's burial service with about 50 of us at the graveside.  How I agonized when he went in alone so tired and facing the empty apartment with no mother. 

Can't get enough of how much he seems to be enjoying his time with family and being spoiled by Bill!  They are so generous with taking wonderful care of dad, and it was so great that he could get out to the doctor and for some special treatment before he returned to his home in the Assisted living.
 A week ago today in Franconia Cemetery close to Taylors Falls, MN.  It did not reach 32degrees and there was a brisk breeze, but the rain of today would have been so much worse.  We are grateful for the sunshine, Father coming to meet with the immediate family, the funeral director allowing a larger group to gather around mom and dad, my brothers for all their work on the service and leading the service, the Cross choir that sounded like angels singing according to Ruth listening at home, and my father's sweet words of love - "Well done good and faithful servant."
 Such a beautiful setting and my mother looked so lovely, peaceful and beautiful!
 My brother, Dan, who does so much for my parents!
 Two brothers on either side - to heck with social distancing!  Grateful that this happened a week ago, because we would not even be legally able to travel the 4 hours there today.  Lord, help our country and this is bringing us to our knees!
 7 of the 10 with dad...
 Audrey comes to make the picture more complete!
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 Dad shared a most beautiful insight with my brother, Bruce, through his window as we are not allowed to go in to see him these crazy days of keeping him safe...  "Mother now is able to love us more perfectly, the way God does.  She knows just what each of us needs."  How amazing is that?
 Bruce and his wife keeping their distance... there to support dad, and continuing to reach out to him in the best way possible.  Thank you, family!
 A week ago and things have gotten more restricted yet!  I was feeling bad about no funeral mass, as we had attended a funeral just the week before, but now with no travel I am grateful for the farewell we were allowed to have a week ago. 

The family together for the most part and standing together around my father!  Some of it was to keep the cold wind off of him, but we had him bundled and heater, and blankets, and hat and gloves and warm jacket... he reported that he was warm the entire time that he did not leave mother's side!
 My brother armed with his favorite candy bar... dad was eating it when they visited through his window.  LOVE!
 My very personal time with Jesus in adoration on Thursday morning at 4a.  This has ended for now as of noon yesterday.  Speaking to a friend, who was sad for it to end and as looking for virtual adoration.  I reminded her that the Church is open for the day hours and Jesus is there in the tabernacle awaiting us in that glorious heavenly place of worship! 
 A beautiful message of St Therese for us to recall that Jesus dwells in our inner temple/tabernacle, and how I love to go there in the peaceful sanctuary of our empty quiet church.
 My hero, St JPII!!!  LOVE this stain glass window from Poland that I came across lately!
 Jude turned one on Thursday!  John and Bobbi shared this with us so that we could join in with his JOY!
 Pictures are the wind beneath my wings!
 The cake slid off the plate and gave him a big frosting kiss!  Pondering the special day this is - turning one!
 David out helping grandpa pulling two calves yesterday... found a new baby to give some pats to.
 Beautiful day yesterday with kids outside enjoying... Ruth was so happy to have the kids out riding bikes and enjoying each other.  This weekend is supposed to be rainy and cool, but Monday and Tuesday close to 60... fake plans to get her deck ready for spring and having Joy's 3rd birthday party out on their beautiful porch!  LOVE!
 After having the tabernacle visible - I miss the glowing golden tabernacle, but yesterday I could see a tiny spot where the gold shone for me!  Under the tabernacle is a Lamb, and today's first reading from Jeremiah 7 - prefiguring of Jesus and what he did for our salvation...
Yet I, like a trusting lamb led to slaughter,
had not realized that they were hatching plots against me:

With The Community of the Lamb so much with me on this journey through my nun daughter, Little Sister Hallel... the Lamb is a constant powerful companion to me!
 The weekend before Lent began Pat and I had a few days in KC with Hallel and her Community of the Lamb.  Jesus in Adoration after morning and evening prayer!
 LOVE to see my daughter having time with her dad!

Hallel called me to hear about her grandma and my family and how I am doing.  It was a wonderful gift!  She shared that they continue to have mass with the brothers and sisters as they are family, but they cannot allow others to join them.  "We have the chapel open for people to stop in and pray, but no adoration for now.  She shared the many family of their community that are sick from the virus.  Many prayers!  Even our own Maria and her family have been though it - very close to home!
 Farm girl, Sue/Hallel/ was very interested in the calving.  She loved cows so much that she put a cow and calf border around her bedroom at home.  It is gone now with the remodel, but it makes me smile to remember doing that with her 20 years ago!  When they came to surprise her during the night that she was in the running for Snow Week ( she was snow queen!) they were impressed with her cows in her humble bedroom with no boom box or TV! 
 Farm girl always and a nun is possible when you see this amazing young lady with her farmer dad in KC!
The motto of the Community of the Lamb - "Wounded, I will never cease to love."  May we be like the trusting Lamb led to the slaughter - die to self so that Jesus may live in us!
While I prayed for Fr Todd yesterday with 7 Sisters... Friday is my day to come in front of the tabernacle for an hour for Fr Todd... I had a Hispanic lady come and on her knees in front of Jesus with her hands raised in love and petition pray to her Lord present there so powerfully!  I was joined by two others there with Jesus, and the organist came and played to our Lord. 

It will be interesting to see how many will come and keep their proper distance - yet close to Him in this beautiful uplifting space!  Jesus is so close to us here! 

The Gospel today is one of those with the Pharisees trying to find fault and arrest him as we get close to Good Friday and Easter... I loved to read the parts about how Jesus spoke as no other had before and there were those than convinced - "This is the Christ!" John 7  Yes, we come to Jesus in the Word each new day and find him there!  This is The Christ indeed!  How we love him and hunger for him!
 Rose again with her First Communion dress... it was to be May 3rd, but now we have to wait until September 20th... her oldest brother Simon's 16th birthday!  Sigh, but waiting will make it more powerful and special!

Another sad thought - Mary graduating from Holy Redeemer School as an 8th grader this year.  For years we have had excited thoughts that at Kindergarten graduation that Mary would be giving her brother, Luke, his graduation hat.  Not sure if that can happen either.  Hard to give up some of those dreams and fake plans/visions of the future. 
 John lectoring at mass a few weeks ago, but no longer for how long we don't know.

Jesus, how we love you so much and hunger for you on this Lenten journey of fasting from you in The Eucharist!  Jesus,we are fed by you in this desert with your Word and each day Your Mother is there with us comforting us and bringing our needs to you.  The Saints also are with us each day!  St JPII how I love to think that my mother is now with you!  Jesus, we trust in you.  Amen
Jude watching his dad serving as lector and Eucharistic minister.  His dad's prayer for faith and love of The Church was answered by being healed of brain cancer over 10 years ago!
How he burns to share the LOVE he has been given! 
9th grade boys assisting at mass a few weeks ago!  LOVE the reverence of these young men.  These days of close family times are hopefully a blessing to families.  Bless-bless, Barb
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ETERNAL GOD, in whom mercy is endless and the treasury of compassion — inexhaustible, look kindly upon us and increase Your mercy in us, that in difficult moments we might not despair nor become despondent, but with great confidence submit ourselves to Your holy will, which is Love and Mercy itself. Amen.
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He walked alone across the empty piazza of St Peter’s, wearing the simple “house cassock” that he favors, through the rain. He did not carry an umbrella. That image alone hit me with the seriousness of the prayer that Pope Francis was about to begin. To pray for the world as he invited the world to pray, on that spot where he says mass and speaks to tens of thousands, alone except for a single aid to help him up the steps. It is an image of these days we share, apart. But Pope Francis was not entirely alone in the rain. To the right, at the foot of one of the great columns of the facade, the icon of “Our Lady, Help of the Roman People,” protected from the rain in a plain plexiglass shrine. It almost never leaves the church of St Mary Major, dedicated in AD 434. Except for the time when Pope St Gregory the Great carried her through the streets of Rome in 593, praying for the end of a great plague, an event that earned the icon the title she has born for almost 1500 years since. To the left, a crucifix at the foot of the other column flanking the entrance. It survived a fire at the church of St Marcello on the Corso in 1519. Three years later, during a great plague it was carried from the rebuilt church through the streets of Rome to St Peter’s. The 600-year-old wooden figure of the crucified stood in the rain, unprotected.
It was between these two ancient images that Francis led the world in a simple prayer. The reading of the account of the Stilling of the Storm in Mark 4:36-41 (read by a lay person), words of reflection from the pope, walking through the rain again to pray before each of the two ancient images, kissing the feet of the crucified Christ.
And then into the portico, the “front porch” of St Peter’s, where the Eucharist was brought to a temporary altar, while the choir inside the church sang Parce, Domine, “Spare Lord, spare your people.” There Francis was joined in silent prayer by just a few of the residents of the Vatican.
And then, while St Peter’s rang every bell it had to let the people of Rome know what was happening, Francis took the monstrance containing the Eucharist in his hands, walked out to the steps, and blessed “Urbi et Orbi.” That blessing, of “The City and The World,” is reserved for two occasions, Christmas Day and Easter Day. It is normally delivered from the pope’s window in the Vatican apartments, using his raised hand. Francis chose this Friday of Lent to bless the world with the True Presence of Christ, from the steps of St Peter’s, in the rain.
There is an ancient tradition of the popes to visit a different church in Rome each day of Lent and the Easter Octave. They are known as Station Churches. Today’s designated church is San Eusebio, the church of the Roman martyr Eusebius. But I noticed on the papal calendar the designation today was changed to “Statio Orbi.” Today, the pope’s church was not San Eusebio, nor even San Pietro where he stood, it was the world.
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O God, beyond all praising - St Michaels Stillwater 2015
Danielle Rose - the Saint that is just me
Danielle Rose - True love/The Cross
Danielle Rose - Nothing compares to you
Salve Regina

Friday, March 27, 2020

The Lord is close to the brokenhearted. Psalm 34

 I keep pondering the gift I was given a couple beautiful fall days in September with my mom.  We went on two toots in the countryside and enjoyed the sights of the farmland and had a nice visit.

My mother loved to go out on "toots" and a lot of Sunday afternoons were spent going out driving around the countryside looking at old building sites and pipedreaming about how they could be fixed up.  Mom and dad did many remodels and finally a build of their dream retirement home/vacation home for their 11 kids!

I find these fond memories both recent and long ago comforting yet they also make me realize just how recent this was and hard to really feel that mom is not a 3 hour trip or phone call away...
Today's Psalm so true for me after losing my mother about 10 days ago... looking to my faith more than ever to help me through with my loss.
The LORD is close to the brokenhearted;
and those who are crushed in spirit he saves.
Many are the troubles of the just man,
but out of them all the LORD delivers him.
R.    The Lord is close to the brokenhearted.
Many times I have spent days in a row with my parents, and now those times are so precious!  LOVED sharing our faith beginning with the office shared before breakfast.... my parents in their old prayer books and me on my phone.  Mom under the painting she loved of the 3 girls, which reminded her of her 3 oldest - all girls followed by 9 others some of each.
 A rose from her garden and her prayer book... their house is now sold and dad prays alone.

This day has escaped me with watching cow TV over at the farm while Ruth homeschooled.  It is good to be busy.  Just back from praying for Fr Todd with 7 Sisters in the big empty church.  The Adoration chapel is now closed due to the virus concerns.  No mass through Easter.  I watched mass at St Patrick's in New York again this morning. So surreal to see the priest repeating his own responses in the huge empty Church in the heart of that huge city struggling with so many sick!
 Mom for the weeks I was so lucky to spend with her this summer and fall.  Mom, I love you and miss you and see you at work loving your many children more perfectly!
 A painting she did from a dream she had and coming into The Church.  Now she has come into His Presence and I pray for her journey
They reached 70 years!  I know that my father also is finding comfort in his Faith!  Jesus, we trust in you.  Bless-bless, Barb

Thursday, March 26, 2020

"O Jesus, I surrender myself to you, take care of everything!" from the surrender novena

 I had to start this day with super cute Big Dave so happy to have 4 new baby egg laying ducklings!  I am sure that Dave is running out to the shop to hold them and love them up in the midst of homeschool.

Grandma asked if Ruth needed help with homeschool now for 5 of the 6, but she said that things are going fine so far.  An excuse to see the ducklings and do a photo shoot was on the back burner.  I just watched a calf born in the middle of the barn, and see that keeping my eyes on the Cow TV could be how I can be more responsible and helpful.  We are due to have many new calves with each new day now!
 Love this homeschool picture from Delano - 1 year old George observing dad helping soon to be 9 year old Gus.
Today our 3rd grandson is one!  Happy Birthday, Jude!  Now they have all joined the one year old club!  Our sweet grandsons, George on Feb 13, Hector on March 8th, and now Jude on March 26th - 3 in 6 weeks!  And each one is a dream boat!

 4a in St Mary's chapel at the school this early dark morning.  The tears flowed as I shared with the people praying on either side of me 3a and 5a.. about the death last week of my wonderful mother.

Since I was alone... I pulled up a chair close to the altar, and found comfort there.  Some intimate deep prayer time with my rosary.  Mary taking my prayers to her Son!  Then the litany of our entire family including my mother as head our our family of 140+ here on earth and all our dead that she is now united with!  Such a powerful hour!
 The snow of yesterday still is hanging around.  It makes calving more of a challenge and keeping the 40 new calves dry and healthy more of a challenge!  So many prayers for good calving season.
 Sitting close to Mary after her Feast Day yesterday of The Annunciation!

Pat and I watched a mass this morning at St Patrick's Cathedral in New York while sitting at the breakfast table.  The Homily spoke of the many times Jesus mentions today of how God has testified that Jesus is His Son!  Bishop asked us to 7 times today repeat a testimony/small prayer/share our love and aknowledgment of our love and recognition of Jesus our Savior in our lives.  He mentioned that we could say the words of Mary to the angel yesterday - "Behold I am the handmaid of the Lord, let it be done to me according to your word." 
or as we have been doing the novena of surrender with Fr Craig
"O Jesus, I surrender myself to you, take care of everything!"
"Lord Jesus Christ, Son of the Living God, have mercy on me, a sinner."  The Jesus prayer!
 My chair close to the altar and Mary with me over my shoulder... a hour of grieving and spending time with my mothers in prayer!
Some prayer time with hubby Pat this morning after sharing breakfast and watching mass taking place in the heart of New York City, which is so very suffering now with this virus!

So grateful for Fr Craig each of the last 9 days leading us in The Surrender Novena from Blessed Charles de Foucauld.  "O Jesus, I surrender myself to you, take care of everything is repeated 10 times, and really becomes a prayer of surrender to giving the control over to Jesus - He is in control in the craziness that we see all around us!
 Praying with Pat this morning - doing morning prayer after watching mass!
 The chairs from my mother's home when they left and moved into Assisted Living in October.  They were left behind as they moved into a small 2 room place from their home.  How I love to have these!  So soft and comfortable and bringing to mind the many talks we would share in her study sitting side by side or face to face
My mother's chairs with the snow out the window and watching the neighbor cat get a drink, my pet blue jays in the trees...

 It was like getting a warm loving hug from my sweet mother to share prayer with my hubby here this morning before I gave him a kiss at the sign of peace while we watched mass and said; "Goodbye honey, I love you.  Have a good day!"
 Morning prayer in this most unusual time in this world... how it brings us to our knees!
 In a larger space for distancing, yet getting as close as I can to my Lord in his humble presence...

"Lord Jesus Christ, Son of the Living God, have mercy on me, a sinner."  The Jesus prayer!
 Prayers from home, yet able to continue with our 24/7 adoration still!  How we need this now!
 After watching a priest talk about exorcism last night with Pat on Youtube... this was especially powerful to observe!  Jesus and His Church is alive and well and casting out the evil spirits!

REAL!!!  The authority of The Exorcist in The Church!
 Reaching for my mother's hand and looking into her eyes of LOVE for me, and taking me to her Son!
Joseph on the other side!  Lunch guests are arriving!  Bless-bless, Barb
 Joy came for lunch and to visit her chickens and pick eggs with grandpa...
one egg.  Do you miss your chickens, Joy?  "not really now they have baby ducks!"
 
Joy  was so excited to give grandma the brown egg.  She ate a wonderful lunch, and...
 found the mickey mouse color book and crayons... purple was the color of choice today.
 Such a happy sweet heart breaking up this gloomy day.

The word just came out that adoration is being suspended as of noon on Friday but reminded us that we can pray in front of the Tabernacle from 6a-9p when the Church is open.  Tomorrow I pray for Fr Todd with 7 Sisters... probably in the big beautiful church!
 Loving her Mickey and purple!  Grandma loved having her smiles and excitement for all the things grandma has here for her to do.
Her biggest JOY was finding baby Jude in the back bedroom and taking him back home with her for nap time.

Jesus, you are always there for us!  How we are lifted up by your unconditional LOVE and forgiveness.  May we die to self so that you may live in us and we may be your hands and feet and voice of Truth in this world of darkness.  Be with families as they are brought close to you and each other as they stay home to keep safe and bring healing to this world.  Jesus, we trust in you.
You sent emissaries to John, and he testified to the truth.
I do not accept human testimony,
but I say this so that you may be saved.
He was a burning and shining lamp,
and for a while you were content to rejoice in his light.
But I have testimony greater than John’s.
The works that the Father gave me to accomplish,
these works that I perform testify on my behalf
that the Father has sent me.
Moreover, the Father who sent me has testified on my behalf..."
John 5 from the Gospel today!
Jesus, we see you at work in The Church and our lives... we testify to the Truth!  Amen
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Taking up our Most Cherished Cross and following Him down the narrow path to find LIFE/LOVE/LIGHT at the end!  Bless-bless, Barb
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