Thursday, June 24, 2010

Do small things with great love!

Grandpa had to get a grandkid fix.... How he loves them and they him!Group hug!You lift me up... I sore to the heights and dwell in the shelter of your wings!  Jesus we trust inYou!

I am so excited for you to get acquainted with Danielle Rose - take time to click on this site and meet this amazing Catholic singer.  We first saw her at NCYC with Susan in Indianapolis about 7 years ago.  She is from Duluth and writes her music in Adoration in front of the blessed Sacrament!  She just tried out religious life for some months and now has returned to her music ministry!  Bless-bless, Barb
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=PO_YUOAA1HU&feature=PlayList&p=D64CAE08AA5F96BB&playnext_from=PL&playnext=1&index=8

The day we asked for a second opinion and walked from the brink of death!

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=WTNBWv33-QI   In honor of this day of all days on our journey a year ago... I would love for you to take a minute and listen to this amazing song called ... What Faith Can Do by Kutless... I got the link from another caringbridge site that I visited tonight.  And I would like to send heartfelt prayers the way of Joyce... Our faith journey begins with the cross!  How it hurts, but how it gives us true LIFE!

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=5npOxjWOhUI  Another amazing song in honor of today called, A Mother's Song for the Crucifixion mystery of her Rosary CD by Danielle Rose!  I am thrilled that I found it to share with you all!  The floodgates could have opened!

The Nativity of St John the Baptist - A day of tears a year ago... today a day of thanksgiving!

"The nativity of Saint John the Baptist is a sacred reminder that I need to be born in my life every day: - Someone who leaps for joy before the presence of the Lord making me want to live my own relationship with Jesus with greater ardor ferver;A sacred reminder of...  Someone to prepare the way of the Lord and to give me the knowledge of salvation through the forgiveness of my sins...The birth of St John the Baptist is a sacred reminder... of someone who turns my attention away from my distractions and preoccupations so that I will behold the Lamb of God as the true desire of my heart..Someone who models for me that there is no greater joy in my life that for Jesus to increase and for me to decrease, especially as regards my self- assertion and self-importance.-someone who is a burning and shining lamp whose radiance gives light to my path and courage to my heart, making me want to live for others. -someone so committed to truth that he is willing to lay down his life for the Truth-become-flesh - witnessing to me that all true happiness comes through self sacrifice...The birth of St John the Baptist is a sacred reminder of the fact that I need born in my life every day; - someone whose sanctity proclaims that there is no man born of woman greater than he is but that I can share his greatness if I love Jesus as he did.In the tender compassion of our God, the Dawn from on high has broken upon us through the birth of John the Baptist." Fr Peter Cameron.O.P.  (see http://www.magnificat.com/ )Happy feast day John!  A year ago... we had just arrived at the hospital in Sioux Falls and were so scared - then word of the horrific surgery they told us they needed to do to discover what the "tumor" was in your brain.  As we sat at your bedside in tears at the constant mentioning of John given as a gift to his mother, Elizabeth, in her old age... John... our only son... was a gift to us and now we were facing the worst with him!  Reading Isaiah 49 from the readings of the day - "Hear, O Coastlands, listen, O distant peoples.  The Lord called me from birth, from my mother's womb he gave me my name.."

This year after now 6 months without cancer due to miraculous healing - The Psalm 139 of mass today is such a powerful reminder of how far we have come... from the brink of death to a life filled with new found faith and hope and trust!  Here is where the tears flowed like rivers last year and continue to this day... "You formed my inmost being;
you knit me in my mother's womb.
I give you thanks that I am fearfully, wonderfully made;
wonderful are your works."

John and I laughed over the last year that the umbilical cord reappeared in the ways that we were put back together as mother and son.  But this time the new life came from all those that lowered us into the presence of our Lord for the healing as the paralytic was lowered into the Lord's presence by his friends and the Lord told him..."Your sins are forgiven you... pick up your mat and walk!"  And he went... walking and leaping and praising God!  Praise you Lamb of God that takes away the sins of the world!  It is so powerful to put ourselves in the place of blind terror of a year ago and now to the place of coming through the cross to the side of resurrection and life!  Jesus we trust in you!  Amen and Halleluia!  Bless-bless, BarbMay your light shine for all to see now and forever!  We love you so much John and are truly blessed by this powerful year of cancer/healing and how it has allowed us to go DEEP, and to be forever changed and humbly to come to our Lord in our weakness!

Wednesday, June 23, 2010

The Bright LIGHT of the Sun, Jesus Christ, shines to all parts of the earth!

"On a hot day in Church.. I sat up close to the fan as it gave a breath of breeze as it turned back and forth... I looked up at Jesus enthroned on the altar... Peace filled me and joy and wonder and delight to have this sacred time alone with my God and Savior Jesus Christ!  The rosary beads pass through my fingers as I lift up each of my children, husband, all our prayer warriors - the Crown of Thorns mystery, and our 5 Godchildren...  The litany of our family is so powerful as there are many and the needs are the Lord's to know and meet.  I trust in You, Jesus!  The chaplet of Divine Mercy at 3p is very powerful for all those that are dying or have no one to pray for them... as that is the sacred time of the death of Jesus on the cross! What an amazing gift!  Looking out the front picture window this morning... three cow calf pairs graze in the sunlight and two robins share the moment...  the sky is covered with gauzey lacy clouds with holes in them... After the hot humid day yesteday with the puffy clouds here and there... we had some rain last night... getting our garden weeded in the nick of time in the sweltering heat last night til dark...Now a new freshness is in the air, and the morning prayer readings speaking of the Light of the Son... so wonderful after the rains in our lives!Today's Gospel - "Every good tree bears good fruit... So by their fruits you will know them."  Matthew 7:15-20  St Catherine of Siena (1380) writes..." O Boundless love, Gentlest Jesus!  How could anyone not be softened and melted by you?  Oh, welcome engrafting, incarnate Word, Son of God, you drove out the worm of Adam's ancient sin.  You got rid of its wild fruit - for sin had made our garden so wild that it could produce no life-giving fruit of virtue.  Oh sweet fire of love, you so engrafted and bound God into humanity and humanity into God that the sterile fruit that had dealt us death became sound and productive.  And so it will always give us life so long as we are willing to make use of the power of reason.""Look at the sweetness of the tender fruit, the spotless Lamb, the seed sown in Mary as in a lovely field...."On the way to town yesterday... peaceful farm scenes along the road to town... We are blessed to have the beauty of nature surrounding us and lifting our thoughts to you, O Lord our God!  Now to church and to kneel before you... the Creator of the world and all its' splendor!  "I beg you in Christ gentle Jesus to lift your love, your affection, your desire up high.  Take hold of the tree of the most holy cross and let it be planted in the garden of your soul, because this is a tree laden with fruits, the true solid virtues... He wills, he insists that we too join ourselves to this sweet tree (the cross) in love and desire.  Then our garden cannot help producing sweet and tender fruit."  St Catherine of SienaThis morning out with the 3 grandkids...looking at the world through their eyes... Life is amazing and beautiful... yes, even those hard crosses that come with life and our journey following the Lamb of God!May we ever embrace that tree that gives us the good fruit - the cross!Jesus we trust in You!  May we follow you wherever you may lead us... If the door opens may we willingly pass through it always carrying your lamp lit... so the our light will shine for all to see.  Amen and Halleluia!  Bless-bless, BarbThe radiant heat of yesterday gave the impression of a "cloud of glory" glowing in the presence of HIM!How I love my rose bush by the side door going into church... I tried to capture the clouds behind them...  They are so tied into Our Lady of Guadelupe and ST Therese of Lissuex - both sent roses as a symbol of the miracles that the Lord works through their intercession and examples!4 year old granddaughter, Mary, had to go and say Hi to her Mary... she is very familiar and comfortable and familiar with her...The scene last night as we finished up the garden in the sweltering heat... the moon and clouds were pretty!

Tuesday, June 22, 2010

In honor of the day of allowing ourselves to dwell in the clouds... Lifted up!

Going through some scrapbooks... I found these of Susan taken about 14 years ago for 4H photo shoot... the backdrop was the clouds and in many of the photos taken in the summer.. the clouds make them very special!  The kitty is a bit scarey though...Ruth was the photographer... hence she is not in them... they dressed up in "farm clothes" just for the picture theme!  Soon we will have Mary and Simon going around the yard taking some of those interesting keepsakes... this year it was clouds on the farm...This was the one that she entered and took to the state fair... Both the clouds and the kitten cooperated...One final cloud backdrop to send us beyond ourselves into the heavens...

"Thy clouds which are fountains of goodness and love." from the morning hymn

What a delight to come to morning prayer this morning with husband and son and to read over and over the references to the "clouds of heaven!"  When we think of heaven we see in our hearts and minds these beautiful displays... how they allow us to escape to the heights and feel free and at peace to know that we can be with Him in a deep interior place... a place that allows us to soar to the heavens!  Today at Adoration... I am filled with wonder and awe to kneel in the presence of the Maker of heaven and earth and pour my heart out to Him... I am filled with wonder and peace and joy!  The Gospel today - "Enter through the narrow gate... How narrow the gate and restricted the road that leads to life."  How I wish and pray that more could come to know Him in His Church and His Sacraments - there lies true life!

"Clouds hide him; he walks upon the vault of the heavens!" Job22:14  leaving the nursing home at about 3:30p - the rainy day had become one of beautiful puffy clouds of varying shapes and sizes... row after row moving across the green fields... I started to be concerned about my driving as my eyes were drawn up to the cool and breezy sky!  I swing through the small town on my way towards home... thinking to take advantage of the beautiful sky with the special Catholic Church in town... "You founded the earth on its base, to stand firm from age to age."  Ps 104  We look to your Church, O Lord, to be our base and guide through life.  You feed us at your table and Your Word comes alive for us as we go forth!The birds on the wire seem to be part of the specatcular and comfortable up there in the wonder of space and to fly through the air... one with the sky!  "You stretch out the heavens like a tent,
Above the rains you build your dwelling.
You make the clouds your chariot,
you walk on the wings of the wind,
you make the winds your messengers
and flashing fire your servants.  Psalm 104  This is one of the grand Hallel psalms!One that is filled with the highest of PRAISE!  The clouds are truly "chariots' that carry our hearts and thoughts up to heaven and the freedom from worry or cares of the world - I think that it called hope and trust! 
"I have built heaven, my upper chamber, and established my vault over the earth; I summon the waters of the sea and pour them upon the surface of the earth, I , the Lord by name."  Amos 9:6"One dimension of God is mystery so awesome in its brightness that before it we are blinded.  We imagine the God of mystery as dwelling far away, above and beyond the heavens he has made.  Yet this same God of mystery dwells very near to us, in our midst, in Jesus Christ."  ( morning prayer - see http://www.magnificat.com/ )Today as I look out on a cloudless sky - thank you, Lord, as we do need the sun after the rain to get the hay baled and the garden and fields weeded... not my favorite job!  Clouds are definitely a most beautiful display and how we long to see the dark rain filled ones throughout the summer to water our fields and pastures!  All of life depends on the moisture from the sky!  Today is the feast day of three men, but the one that I would like to speak about is ST Thomas More...He was beheaded by Henry VII in 1535 as he would not give in and OK the king's wishes to divorce his wife and take another which was against the Wisdom of the Catholic Church!  St Thomas was a prominant who was then made chancellor of the king's court and was a family man... he had one son and three daughters.   He loved the Eucharist.... He writes..."Now when we have received our Lord and have him in our body, let us not then let him alone, and get us forth about other things, and look no more unto him... but let all our business be about him.  Let us by devout prayer talk to him, by devout meditation talk with him.  Let us say with the prophet..."I will hear what our Lord will speak with me." "St Thomas observes that just as God supported the Isrealites in their earthly pilgrimage by "walking with them in the cloud by day and the pillar of fire by night," so much more does he now "assist and comfort us with the continual presence of his precious Body in the holy Sacrament.""All of ST Thomas More's spirituality can be summed up as a a life-long quest for heaven....In his final letter to his daughter..."Farewell my dear child, and pray for me, and I shall for you, that we may merrily meet in heaven."


It was wonderful to read about his personal prayer life... he would rise at 2a and spend the first 5 hours of his day in prayer and study.  Wow!  I love to spend my couple hours a day here and there snatched as I travel to work or after lunch with my ever present rosary!  He would also have prayer with his wife and children morning and night!  We have clung to this throughout the last year with John and his cancer/healing journey, and continue to get nourishment, strength and hope as we take each day and all that it brings to us! Including the joy of beautiful fair weather clouds flying across the sky to take our thoughts heavenward!  May we take the time today to revel in His creation and to turn to our Lord in loving prayer and petition.  It is the day that we can come into his presence in Adoration in our church and I LOVE to kneel and pray there in the presence of my God!  Jesus I love you and trust in You!  Amen and Halleluia!   Bless-bless, Barb  St Thomas More pray for us!"Now to this great glory no one can come headless.  Our head is Christ, and therefore to him must we be joined, and as members of his body must we follow him, if we wish to get there.  He is the guide to guide us there, he entered in before us, and so anyone who wishes to enter in afterward must "walk in the same way in which he walked" (1 John 2:6)  And what is the way in which Christ walked into heaven?  He himself showed what way it was that his Father had provided for him, when he said to the two disciples going through the village of Emmaus, "Was it not necessary that the Christ should suffer these things and enter into his glory?"  (Lk 24:26)  Who, then, can be so shameful as to desire to enter into the kingdom of Christ with ease, when he himself did not enter into his own kingdom without pain?"  St Thomas More was a British , judge, chancellor ,and martyr.

Jesus, I love you with all my life!  Allow me to take each part and piece and to see your hand in it!  There are those crosses that are hard and make us less than the Christian... we are weak, but that is where we turn into your outstretched arms and find forgiveness and the strength to go on... with you!  Amen and Halleluia!