Monday, May 11, 2020

Mother's day without my mom/Morning has broken/blessed by kids and grandkids!/Happy Birthday Jo!

 A number of years back...kind of blurry and other worldly and that is how it felt yesterday without my mother for the first Mother's Day.

There were many emotions starting with attending the 8a mass on line, and the opening hymn was Morning has Broken, the hymn my mother chose for her funeral service/and someday her mass of Christian Burial.  We sang it at her graveside a month and a half ago, and to sing it on Mother's Day brought her close to me!
Morning has Broken - Cat Stevens
My mother and I 68 years ago.  I have had my mother in my life up until 3/16/20... I was able to be with her for her last few hours of life, and say "goodbye" to her. 

I was the oldest of 11, and hence I have such a close relationship with my wonderful parents.  My life has been filled with graces and blessings as they listened to the Holy Spirit's direction in their lives and ours!  Most amazing was our all 13 coming into The Catholic Church - 49 years ago.  Each day since has been a gift to me of the greatest pearl of great price!
https://familysoulstory.blogspot.com/p/the-amazing-story-of-13-becoming.html
 The girls around Josephine Francis, who had her 4th birthday on Mother's Day!  We celebrated with doughnuts, Birthday dinner, and lots of cousin time on the farm!

I had my 2 girls with me cooking for me and spoiling me with hugs and caring support on this first Mother's Day without my mother!
 Beautiful roses from my Most Cherished Cross, Patrick, and my own beautiful mother with the icon she made of our Spiritual Mother, Mary the Mother of Jesus and God!

When John called me to wish me a happy mother's day we smiled together when he reminded me; "There is a better mother than you, mom, Mary our Mother!"  We share that LOVE for her, and she is with us on our journey!
 The LIGHT of our 2 mothers!!! 
 The 3 big boys are now 1 and all are walking how I long to get them all together this summer!  George walked through the crowd - of 11 kids and parents to find his loving grandpa Pat's arms!  They ate their doughnut together shades that Rose got for her birthday and all!
 Birthday girl, Josephine, hardly able to look over the pile of plates for her birthday party.  With the farm kids and cousins - 11 total it makes for an instant party!!!
 The kid table in Ruth's large open dining/living room!
 The official birthday gathering around the cake...Josephine is fabulous 4!  The 3 girls - Josephine, Evangeline and Joy were all 3 for about 5 weeks... it is fun to see JoJo and Joy enjoying their cousin friendship!
 Straight from singing happy birthday to the little Sisters and little Brothers in KC singing a blessing over Josephine!  She lived there up until a year ago and they would go over the see Hallel and The Community of the Lamb weekly for Nancy's hour of Adoration.  How they miss their time with them just half an hour away!

It was a special mother's day gathering on Zoom with Hallel and The Community of the Lamb - there were 17 of us gathered at Ruth's, but just as we were to be with Hallel... Pat went out to pull a calf and missed our daughter teaching on the Gospel for Mother's Day/the 5th Sunday of Easter.  I tried mightily to concentrate on her words of deep love and insight, but I too was distracted a lot by all the craziness around me.
 Susan/Hallel teaching and sharing her deep insights - some that I did gather was about how we are called to get past the small things that interfere with our total love for our Lord, and to be meek and humble of heart.  To watch my daughter before me and to witness her deep love and devotion to her Spouse, Jesus Christ, caused me to weep along with all that was pulling at my heart on this very powerful Mother's Day! 

To have 3 of my girls there with me, and the 4th called also and I am so aware of her love for me and our shared love for Jesus and His Bride, The Church... which is my total JOY!  John also along with his wife are united with us as we share Faith/Family/Farm!
LOVE to look into the eyes of my daughter, and share with her from my heart...

John 14 has been what dad and I read together this week and the "places the Lord has prepared for us" give us great comfort at the recent loss of mom/dad's wife of 70+ years!  Also we have repeated the words of Jesus from the Gospel yesterday..."I am the way and the truth and the life."  Which are very powerful for my father on his journey down the narrow path!  He shared that he has chosen these verses for the Gospel to be read at his funeral mass.
 Dad and I are back on our daily schedule of prayer after yesterday was kind of busy with time with my family on the farm... we did get in our daily rosary together midafternoon.
 Dad gets great joy from finding emails from his kids filling him in on the latest.  He learned that a couple of his daughters went to visit mom's grave for Mother's Day.  It means a lot to us!
Josephine and Bernadette miss their time with The Community of the Lamb in Lumen Christi in the inner city of Kansas City!  Lots of smiling faces seeing them yesterday.

Our family has been expanded by hundreds by our nun daughter!  Who says that she cannot give us more family... How we love our Family of the Lamb, and are so blessed by their prayers and sharing with us.
 I ran out of blankets to cover my tomato plants... a stocking cap I used while mowing looks nice and snuggly for the baby plant.
 An oldie - dad with the 3 oldest girls - Barb, Marty and Paula quite a few years back
 Another one with my wonderful mother!
 Baby Susan/Hallel was girl #4
 Baby Ruth - my first!
 Baby Nancy my second
 Then you had that boy!  When we walked into mass with the blue bundle - there was practically a cheer from those there.  For sure there was an audible sigh of suprise!
https://familysoulstory.blogspot.com/p/my-most-cherished-cross-patrick-gerard.html

I had two losses between Susan and John and after 3 more including 2 stillborn sons I delivered at 20 weeks are are buried at the cemetery.  Certainly powerful emotions of Mother's Day for me - my 7 losses keep my eyes on heaven and living in that place he has prepared for me with my huge family!  The reunion will be one of tremendous LOVE and JOY!!!
 The doughnut pile for Mother's Day!
Ruth with her 6 on Mother's Day!  Such a great farm family that we are so grateful to have them on the farm!
 The birthday girl with slime on her hands, and chocolate doughnut face!
 Cool Rose Again was just 8 a week ago.
 My Mother's altar in the sun!
 A sister-in-law's special Mother's Day space with the black bird from mom's song!  LOVE!

Jesus, with your Mother at your side, how we adore you and long to be all yours!  We can't love your mother more than you do, and anything she brings to you from us you give ear and answer.  May we serve without counting the cost as she did, O Lord!  Jesus, humble us so that we are weak and we look to you always and forever.  Jesus, we trust in you.  Amen and Hallelujah
 Dad baptizing baby Maria Theresa in 1983.
 Dad baptizing Susan Angela in 1985
Dad baptizing John Patrick in 1989!  How blessed am I to now share in the religious life and calling of my father to the Permanent Deaconate?  Blessed to the depths of my soul!  Bless-bless, Barb
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O God beyond all praising - St Michaels in Stillwater
the other hymn we sang at my mother's grave on 3/21/20

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