Friday, December 18, 2020

CCC 2020 - cancelled for the first time in 35 years! Mom and dad both gone, too!/ "As the Lord lives!"..."God is with us!"


The year of matching T shirts 4 years ago - 2016!  With Hallel from afar in KC that year - we were up to 24, and now 4 years later we are expecting our 31st member, and with our LOVE for ALL LIFE that counts in our books!  John has added a wife and two children, Ruth has added Joy, Nancy has added George, Maria has added Hector, and a new baby girl in the spring!  

I am so emotional today knowing that we would have been gathering in Amery, WI for our huge Cross Christmas Camp 2020!  I just read the letter I sent out on October 4th with the sad news that we were canceling due to the virus and that Pat, Dad and I would be here as we could not leave with dad.  3 weeks later he was peacefully gone!  

Grandma and Birdie had fun yesterday!  Christmas handme down dress, a halo and ornaments off the tree. She is so close to sitting up on her own, but mom's nursing circle does the trick till then.  

This would have been Birdie's first Cross Christmas, and many great-aunts would have hardly allowed her to crawl around... lots of loving and yearning arms to hold the new little ones.  
Happy little girl in the middle of Christmas JOY!  

The year my sister was dealing with her cancer 35years ago was our first Cross Christmas Camp the weekend before Christmas, the next year we visited Mary's grave as she had died July 3, 1986.  This is the first time we have not had camp even with weather over these years!  And to have mom and dad both gone... it is a hard pill to swallow!  Neither of my parents died due to covid, rather it was just their time to go, and only 7 months apart.
We have so much fun, and grandma is getting her trained to pose for me and give me lots of sweet smiles.  She is such a wonderful baby girl!  It is so fun to know that she has girl cousins in both families close to her in age.  She will have one a year younger when Maria has her baby girl in the spring! 

 A year from now CCC 2021 her baby cousin will be 7 months and pose for grandma in this dress and come and get held endlessly at CCC 2021!  Then Birdie and her can meet all the family!  Birdie did come to dad's funeral on Halloween but due to the cold and social distancing she did not meet much or get held much by her extended family.
Grandma went kind of crazy, and loved and giggled every minute of it.  
The sliver of the moon out the window and the star on the tree and the lights reflected were a special sight last night.
7 year old first grader, Luke with his halo and Christmas clothes for school spirit "dress Christmas" at the Catholic School today.  How the kids are happy to be back at school, and so is there mom!
Now with 8 year old 3rd grader Rose Again!
12 year old David and Rose have green and red hair for the Christmas dress up day at the Catholic School!
Now the hair to admire... Fun to see them as they are excited for school after bouts of at home learning.

In all their Christmas glory... A way to smile on this day of disappointment and sadness at the reality that mom and dad are gone and our Christmas is not to happen.  One good outcome is our first ever Verly Christmas Camp for a weekend in mid- January.  It is still going down as Verly Christmas 2020, as the Christmas Season will still be going on then.  Much excitement is building as the tickets are bought for Maria and Joseph and their 6 going on 7 being here for a week!  O Please, Lord, allow us to come together and share a family Christmas like no others!
 

Over to see Mary's goats in their new pen after sharing mass with hubby this early morning of Friday of the 3rd week of Advent.  

From the first reading from Jeremiah this morning these words jump out in the midst of the sadness of no CCC this year and mom and dad both gone!  "As the Lord Lives!"  Jeremiah 23 talking about how the Lord is bringing them the Messiah.  Yes, the Lord is alive and at work in the midst of this world filled with darkness... the LIGHT is coming and has come indeed!
The many faces of Mary's beloved goats - she has started a venture of being a goat farmer and will sell their kids for meat.  They are due to kid in March about when the cows are also having their calves!
"Mary sure loves her goats!"  reported grandpa Pat after helping get them ready for the winter in the shed.  
The porch lights and the sunset after turning on the nativity.
A precious toothless grin for grandma!  This little girl will be our baby Jesus in our family nativity we have plans to live out for our big weekend!  

The Gospel today is a delightful story of Joseph and Mary - as Fr Denny reminded us that we need to ask St Joseph to assist us in loving Mary and Jesus better and selflessly.  It was news to me that on Dec 8th the year of St Joseph started!  

Never enough...

the angel of the Lord appeared to him in a dream and said, 
“Joseph, son of David,
do not be afraid to take Mary your wife into your home. 
For it is through the Holy Spirit
that this child has been conceived in her. 
She will bear a son and you are to name him Jesus,
because he will save his people from their sins.” 
All this took place to fulfill
what the Lord had said through the prophet:

Behold, the virgin shall be with child and bear a son,
and they shall name him Emmanuel,

which means “God is with us.” 
When Joseph awoke,
he did as the angel of the Lord had commanded him
and took his wife into his home.   Matthew 1

"God is with us!" Yes, he is!  Knowing that mom and dad are now together with their Jesus, Mary, St Joseph and all the saints in heaven forever!  It brings that heavenly home so much closer to me.  I am still in shock as a year ago I would have never thought that they would be gone so quickly - both!

Jesus, I am needing to give all the control over the you and trust.  May I die to self so that you may live in me!  We are just a week away from Christmas - give us health and safety and wonderful times of adoring all that you did when you came humbly to earth to save us.  Jesus, we trust in you.  Amen and Hallelujah
My little namesake, Birdie Barbara, is such a sweet little gift to her family!  Bless-bless, Barbara Luke
One for each of the 30 including Hallel in France!  It is the right color, so we might see her in it somewhere - like alone in her cell.  See her in it in our minds' eye.  She will be added to the family picture for sure as she will be the only one missing - the good Lord willing and the creek don't rise or the snow doesn't blow!
Their resting place side by side - love and miss you, mom and dad.  

St Augustine is always wise and amazing!

O Antiphon - O Adonia
From Brother Victor-Antoine today!  How I love to join in his monastic life!  Thanks, dad!



"Did the apostles gasp in wonder as they heard You say,
"Take this, all of you,
and eat it: this is My Body
which will be given up for you'?
 

I look upon the Host
whenever I am at Mass,
speechless and struck with awe at such humility.
My life is so full of me - so full of pride -
so full of the need to keep my identity. 



 
You are willing to hide
Your Glory and Majesty
behind this wafer,
so I may gaze at my God and not die.
You want me to be comfortable
in your Presence -
to speak to You unencumbered
by the difference in our natures. 

 
Oh Love, that is not loved,
how can I return Your love?
Wash me clean, dear Jesus,
clean of every sin and weakness.
Cover me over with mercy and forgiveness."
 
Mother Angelica
The Mass is My Life
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The final week of Advent approaches. 
It is an ideal time for approaching our Savior,
full of tender mercy,
in the sacrament of Reconciliation.
Let us prepare for good and grace-filled
holy Communions.

"A contrite heart implies the turning away from sin,
and in this way a sacrifice is offered to God 
on the altar of the heart." - St Vincent Ferrer


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"Everyone say to himself: 
'When was the last time I went to confession?'
And if it has been a long time, 
don't lose another day! 
Go, the priest will be good.  And Jesus will be there,
... Jesus receives you.
He will receive you with so much love!
Be courageous and go to confession." - Pope Francis










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