So wonderful to see puddles after a good rain! We have been in a drought really since last July 1st! There is still much rain needed to get the moisture down where the roots of the plant go as it grows towards the sun...but it just feels like we have broken the cycle and that maybe the heavens will burst forth and give us the plentious rains that we need! St Joseph, with Mother of God, Mary Most Holy, and Jesus the Savior of the World - hear our prayers!
Yesterday after CS Lewis led into such a deep and painful place in which the Lord spoke volumns to me and my family... the loss of my last 3 children after John, and how John and I sharing his books of travels to imaginary lands where good overcame evil... I talked to John last night, because all day long I just missed him after sharing. He remembered from his perspective that we would read for years together..."You would always read to me until I fell asleep, and the next night you would start where you left off, and I wouldn't remember that part, so you would have to reread some of it that I must have slept through. I really was spoiled and felt really special to have this time with mom at night." I was of course crying and laughing at the same time, while we talked about this shared experience and hearing his perception of it. I do remember that Pat would every night have to pick up little John and take him to his bed. So precious and special...I joked with him that the close time we spent fighting the enemy cancer really was a similar closeness, and now compairing the two it really was as close as you can get... "like the umbilical cord had reappeared." Just the way that it felt to be THAT CLOSE!
Yesterday started out emotional with my sharing here, and it continued on through the day. I had put on a CD by Danielle Rose,while I made lunch, and it was the Pursue Me one that Maria had played often in the kitchen and danced with her little 1 year old, David! The first song would come on and little Dave would reach his arms up to his mother and she would sway him around the kitchen to the song - In the Silence of the Heart - http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=NaGSMb7wF4k . I wept loud and long while I was making our lunch, and Pat wondered what was wrong... I miss my little family in Texas!
Special time with mother and son... she took a copy of the CD with her, and I am sure the special moments continue in her kitchen in Texas!! Maria has no TV in her home and so there is much time that she has with her children without the distractions of the world! They are free from all of that! Such a blessing! One of the things that they share daily is mass first thing in the morning! That is truly sharing the most wonderful and important thing there is to share!
Some more that I found while Maria and her kids stayed with us while Joe was in basic training! Both Ruth and Maria will be adding one to this picture, and we can't forget about Nancy's,Augustine, to make the picture complete! Today at mass I prayed for all those innocent little ones in the womb - thinking of all LIFE, and most especially my grandchildren that I pray for the safety of them and their mothers every day!
This will be a busy weekend with more family coming to see the new baby calves, so in gearing up for that I have been working on a watercolor of Mary out with the calves... I will gift it to her for her 6th birthday on April 19th. It just seems like at this spring time of year and the summer... I feel the need to paint, and some of my best watercolors have been paintings that I have done for Nancy's birthday - April 2, and Maria's birthday - August 14th. Now with Mary in April... I find that she was my main character as I had a semi-true and semi imaginary picture of her out in the pasture feeding apples to Snowball and Snowflake and her family, including the new baby due in a month, were back in the willow trees having a picnic on a beautiful late summer day!
It was fun, and less than great by any stretch of the imagination! Jesus, how we long to come to you in the silence of our hearts, and fall on our knees in thanksgiving for all the ways that you LOVE us in this lifetime! Yes, there are those times that we cannot understand the pain and loss, but we can only Trust in your plan for each one of us! There is tremendous peace when we can hand it over to you, and not try to control things. Your ways are not always our ways... May we take the time today in prayer to listen to your words of wisdom and love to us, within the silence of our hearts. You speak to us and we are yours. Jesus, we trust in you. Amen and Halleluia
Bless-bless, Barb“I thought ... that I was carried in the will of Him I love, but now I see that I walk with it. I thought that the good things He sent drew me into them as the waves lift the islands; but now I see that it is I who plunge into them with my own legs and arms, as when we go swimming. I feel as if I were living in that roofless world of [Earth] where men walk undefended beneath naked heaven. It is a delight with terror in it! One's own self to be walking from one good to another, walking beside Him as Himself may walk, not even holding hands. How has He made me so separate from Himself? How did it enter His mind to conceive such a thing? The world is so much larger than I thought. I thought we went along paths--but it seems there are no paths. The going itself is the path.”
― C.S. Lewis, Perelandra
“The beasts would not think it hard if I told them to walk on their heads. It would become their delight to walk on their heads. I am His beast, and all His biddings are joys.”
― C.S. Lewis, Perelandra
http://www.youtube.com/watch?feature=player_embedded&v=ptzi4ZrkiJE... please take the time to listen to this young priest speak to Planned Parenthood..."I have a say..." Here comes the Catholic Church!
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