Wednesday, March 10, 2021

A year ago.../Rain today and snow?/Gazing towards the Kingdom of Heaven as we drag our Cross down the narrow path

 

A year ago for my dad's birthday, March 6th, we showered him with cards for his 95th birthday,  just as their life was to change very dramatically with shutting down due to covid and mom dying in a day on March 16th.

 There is something about today that is haunting me - March 10th seems like it should be something special in my life... maybe I talked to my mom on the phone this day for the last time?  Probably it is just coming into less than a week from when she surprised us with her fall and dying 10 hours later!

Joy and Nate?  It is the year of the "Ns"!
Our 5th calf as it shows on his eartag is very cute, but a disappointment as we were hoping for a female and he is a bull.  The first calf for it's mother, and might go to the fair showed by Rose as a cow-calf pair.  The fake plans are flying around.  Pat says that Rose is very interested and involved with the calving this year.
Like mother like daughter... Joy is learning to love her life on the farm like her mom before her.  
Just a few days old and already eating hay... so sweet and healthy.
Joy and her mom putting Nate back out with his mom in the warm sunshine.
These two are a team!  Earlier they had baked cupcakes for 2 of Joy's imaginary friends, who were having their birthdays.  It seems that each week they are having a birthday and need cupcakes or cookies.  Joy has been known to get out butter to melt and sugar from the pantry to get the cookies started ahead of her mom.  The kids are happy to find them when they come home from school!

I am so reminded of having the gift of being home with my kids for my "nest years"... the 14 years until my youngest,  John, started all day school and I renewed my nursing license and started working for hospice.  I would love to have homemade "school snacks" for them to have when they would come up the driveway from the bus!  It seemed that Pat got wise to this time and show up to share in his farm afternoon "farm lunch" for those hard working farmers! 
Part of our VCC - First Verly Christmas Camp - we decorated sugar cookies - a carry over from the 34 years of our family Christmas Camp , which started the year before my sister died of cancer at age 28.
Grandpa helping Jude was special with lots of licking of the spoons.
Evangeline with lots of sprinkles!  She was 4 on November 1st, and Joy will join her on March 31st, and Josephine is 4 and will be 5 in May.  Our group of 3 girls for that year are now good friends!
I have plans to break the rules and fill Hallel in about Maria's fake plans for the arrival of her baby Mid- May.  I will write her a quick email as her prayers are so important to us for this journey!

The rain outside is not very welcome during calving, and I am feeling emotional today as we are entering the last week of my mother's life a year ago.  The Gospel today Jesus has us gazing at The Kingdom of heaven and asking us to teach and follow The Commandments we are given in The Word and by His Church! 

 I am not the best and miss the mark and sin, but I must say that as I stagger down the narrow path dragging my Most Cherished Cross - that I keep the Kingdom of Heaven with my children, grandchildren, parents, sister and all the Angels and Saints ever before me as my goal and pray without ceasing that I will be there at the end of this journey.  The more that are there praying for me "more perfectly"... the more I am lifted up and compelled to stagger forward!
"Your words, Lord, are Spirit and life;
you have the words of everlasting life." The words before the Gospel today - John 6
6 years ago Gus and Berna giving their new brother, Dominic, a kiss when they meet him for the first time!  We just got word that Berna will be having her First Communion on April 11th!  Her brother had his as a surprise just before the shutdown, so Nancy will have a party/celebration for the two of them!  How we love to share our Faith as a family!
Gus and Bernadette on either side of their youngest brother, George, in PA where we celebrated George turning 2 on March 13th.  When you grow up  with many siblings - you learn to share and discover that siblings are so much more wonderful than things or toys or games - There is no comparison to having family to go through life together!
Augustine and Bernadette on the porch of their great-grandparents farm house a few weeks back, with their 3 younger brothers and sister.  It is very exciting to have this big step in their Catholic Faith journey to celebrate with family!

LOVE this special page on my calendar with the roses gifted me a week late from my hubby!  They lasted for 2 weeks!  They certainly made me feel loved and special!
They were beautiful for 2 weeks!  Thank you, dear husband for a sign of your love.  Fr Craig and Pat were talking..."I am aiming at Pergatory." said Pat  "You better be careful, your aim is not that good." Fr Craig 

Lord, I am longing to follow you without counting the cost - dying to self so that you may live in me.  May I keep my heart, mind and soul focused on heaven and dwelling there with you forever.  Please, be with the cows and their baby calves in this challenging weather.  Assist the farmers in doing the best job at feeding the world.  Thank you for sharing our Faith as a family!  Jesus, we trust in you.  Amen 
John said that he had prayed to St Therese for orange roses... they were here to say "yes, John!"  St Therese is sending us signs and roses from heaven as she did to your sweet faithfilled wife as she waited for you for 10 years - talk about prayers answered for her John through such an amazing journey!  Bless-bless, Barbara
Ready to bake as she borrows Birdie Barbara's apron!!!! 
Flooded with memories as I prayed on the porch on a warm spring day yesterday.  Now rain and snow?

Brother Victor cute with baby kids - soon we will have baby goats - kidding here!

 


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